is it weird?

[idk girl]

Hey

So don't get me wrong i love my few friends for their support with my SI and ED. But, i don't want people to know. I don't want my family to know. I don't want my team to know. I don't want their sympathy or anything from them. i want to hide it from the whole world except my closest friends who even then i don't share everything with. is that normal? shouldn't i want support from everyone? shouldn't i want their help? sometimes i just feel like i don't want to get better even though i know it's bad for me. :(

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

that just like me. For me though, im so used to hiding everything and keeping everything to myself. I wish lots of people didnt know about my SI, but theyre support keeps me thinking about the consequences even though i also dont want sympathy. Its normal to not want people to know about personal things about you. Dont worry, just be thankful you do have people who love and care for you and are there for you, thats what i do.

[Mike321]

Its up to you who you want help off, I only told one or two people about my cutting.
Its not always a good thing if alot of people know about it, you should only tell people you really trust, as you said yourself, you dont want everyone to know.
So, personaly, i'd keep it between your closet friends, and be glad of the help and support they give you

[xgeekyrocksx]

no thats not wierd. Sometimes people trying to help just end up bothering you, and the thought of any more of my family finding out makes me sick.. so no, i think its totally normal and maybe varies between different people?

[Aspiringanonymous]

It's common. Most of us have felt this way at some point. When depression has become the norm in one's life, it establishes a delusion that one is more comfortable in this state - because the world outside of it has become so strange and possibly even unreal. But it is difficult to recognize this experience for what it is - the darkness expanding its influence and power over you, while light is being isolated from its source and thus weakening.

You don't have to open up to everyone - it's probably in your best interest not to, in case discretion fails and someone decides to use your secrets against you. But you must never lose that connection to the outside, to those who can empower you when your own strength is failing; those sources of light. Heck, it's not even vital that you express all of your thoughts. Some things are truly better left unsaid. The key is to be open, and accepting of support from those you connect with. You know - this support can be in many forms. There are times when, just sitting quietly together is more than enough.

All the best to you. :hug3:

[georgiamay]

Yes, this is completely normal, although for everyone it is not at all a good idea to do so. I don't know anyone that has self harmed that wants people to know about it. I suppose if you went round just telling people about it, it wouldn't be such a good idea, but maybe your family should know. Perhaps if they know they'll be able to get you the help that you need, and they'll support you every step of the way.

You don't need to tell them absolutely every thought you have when you have it, there are somethings that you can keep to yourself if you like, but there's no reason why you can't just tell them what you've been doing, and accept they're support. If they ask questions, do your best to answer them as honestly as you can, but make sure you feel comfortable with what you're telling you. The last thing you need is an awkward situation, but there's a possibility it might happen anyway. If you don't feel ready to open up to your family, that's fine as well. You can stick to being open and honest with your close friends. As long as you're talking to someone, it's enough.

Good luck with it all, you can PM me anytime if you need to talk about anything :hug: