Lost the will

[Lemonlover934]

i will stay alive for my brother.
but i have lost the will to live
i lay in bed, just not moving
i have no energy, ever
and i just have nothing
i lost the one person who mattered most and it was my fault
and now he is hurting too
i am just sick of things.
i know its a rant
but it got me out of bed
now i just want to go back and live out my days alone.

[Aspiringanonymous]

:hug3: I can relate. I am too tired to go on all the same - but something I hold dear prevents me from going down that path - so I am still here, struggling to remain on top of things. Sometimes just having that single flicker of light is enough, though; when we are lost, rely on whatever is present and available, anything to get us through the immediate darkness. Perhaps there will be something worthwhile awaiting at the end of this path - sure, the future is uncertain, and while that fact makes changes for the worse a possiblity, the same is true when it comes to a turn for the better, right?

And one day when we have passed into the next stage of our life journey, we'll look back on our worst moments and realize just how much we learned from these experiences. Don't let it kill you - because it will make you stronger.

I'm not sure what happened, but trust me, nothing is ever a hundred percent anyone's fault. It's just life happening.

I have to go now, but I just wanted to say that you're not alone, and if you ever need to rant more, feel free to post, or even send me a PM. Take care of yourself, and hope you feel a little better soon. :hug3:

[Art_dude]

Damn... i always feel like shit when trying to post after Maya xD

I know how you feel claire. I've been to the dark places of my mind. I've had the days I would sleep away and beg for death to stop the pain. It happens to some of us - however don't for a second think that you brought this upon yourself.

Oftentimes when I hear people tell me "I've lost the will to live" I give them the counterintuitive reply, "good."

It's only until we have experienced pain and suffering to our most extreme depths that we discover our sincere and human desire to end it. As Buddha said, "In order to gain anything you must first lose everything." And part of finding joy and meaning in life again starts with going to the places that scare us. And as painful as it feels right now, know that the silver lining is just around the corner. When we reach our lowest point there's no place left to go but up. And when we realize our desire to free ourselves from depression, the real progress can begin.

If you ever need ANYTHING let me know :hug:

[ivanori]

I'm having the same problem.. so I can't give advice. But, get busy.. that's what I've done. When I stop doing things I fall back into my depression. I don't have time to feel tired, or sorry for myself. Try it, it works for me.. But it might not work for you.