i cant take it anymore.

[1_21Guns]

i just want to die.
why wont i fucking die.
i just screw everything up.
i want my dad.
i want you.
i never fucking die.
i cant take much more.
im so close to cutting.
i wont kill myself but bloody hell.
i want to die.
im in the middle of another breakdown... i shouldnt post this
i dont even know where i am..
ugh...

[brennaluvv]

You're not alone. I feel almost the same way.

[the8bitter]

Same way I feel. I live a pretty bad life myself :/

[loonatic]

In life there are always two ways, good and evil.

If you screw up everything, then it is because you went the wrong way. So from here on choose good and your life will improve.

I've been like you.

[Blue63]

I've been there. It sucks. It's horrible. You feel like your drowning in a dark abyss.

Believe me when I say this - even though you won't want to - things will get better. In every life, bad things happen and good things happen. Even in the case of the most horrible beings that ever existed, they have had good moments. It feels farther away than it is, but eventually things will get better. I know this sounds empty and meaningless, but trust me it's not.


Remember that you're not alone.

[1_21Guns]

thanks.
i'm just so sick of getting better then falling as low as i was before, it just seems neverending.

[georgiamay]

thanks.
i'm just so sick of getting better then falling as low as i was before, it just seems neverending.

Yeah I know what you mean, but we fall so we can learn to pick outselves up again. Things will get better. It might seem like it can never get better now, but it will get better. Just pick yourself back up, and carry on.

I'm always here if you need to talk :hug:

[iMukuro]

It sucks. There's nothing much a website can do besides have people tell you that they're just like you. That doesn't help much either.
Life does seem to have a way of letting you down doesn't it? You've tried to be nice, but it seems to have slapped you across the face.
Now, you're tired of being nice and you think you'll be doing a favor for ending not only your suffering, but the others around you.
But, taking your own life is such a selfish thing to do. It's not your place to balance life in death in your hands.

[Aspiringanonymous]

thanks.
i'm just so sick of getting better then falling as low as i was before, it just seems neverending.
It is tiring, and it may be true. The overall situation you are in as of now may have created a loop. The key is to realize that situations will change, and once that changes and the conditions which perpetuate it are no longer present, it too will likely change in form.

When no decisive victory can be found, sometimes one's most realistic option is to focus on survival and not necessarily success. Get through this segment of your path, and the next one may be vastly different. Granted, problems don't instantly disappear with a life change, but you may find a wider sky and more potential to prevail in your struggles.

Your current position will not last forever, trust me - things change, and especially so when one is dissatisfied and actively seeking opportunities for change. It will probably seem like a while before one actually comes along, but just remember how far you have already come - you can keep going.

All the best to you. :hug3:

[1_21Guns]

thank you everyone