278 days ...gone.

[goneghost]

ugh i was so close to reaching a year,i reached 278 days,
i cut for the first time since december 3rd 09 tonight,
i just snapped.
i stabbed my pillow, so that has a gaping hole in it(my mum is not going to be happy,great,thats all i need my abusive mum having a go at me).
And my leg well thats covered in scratches and a few cuts.
i thought i was over cutting you know, i honestly didnt think i could bring myself to cutting anymore,i was wrong as per usual.
im a failure....im just one big fuck up.

sorry,this was a bit of a pointless post.

[Aspiringanonymous]

You're not a failure hun. So long as we live, and continue to fight, there will always be the possibility, no matter how small, of success. I recently relapsed too; it was a crushing experience, but as I slowly came out of its shadow and found reason to start anew, I realized that I learned a lot from it, obtained new awareness that wouldn't have been possible otherwise. Perhaps it will be the same for you.

It's okay to feel whatever you may be feeling about it all right now, just remember that you can start again - even if that seems impossible now. Give yourself time, and keep your successes close to heart. Sure, there is no guarantee that you'll never relapse again, but that dosen't matter really. It's the journey, not the result, that matters. For we exist only in the present moment, not the past or future - and to spend each moment feeling empowered and in control, is that not the purpose of quitting?

May you find strength and light. :hug3:

[blah_x]

its never pointless to post hun :)
Nd your not a fuck up or a failure yano you just have to pick up and start again innit.
i hope you know that :)
x

[Mike321]

Its not a pointless post at all
But well done for the 278 days, thats really really good.
We've all had relapses and made mistakes and you are by no means a failure, you just gotta pick yourself back up when your ready and carry on, theres never any rush to do this, whenever you feel ready just start again, you can do it.
PM me anytime, if you need to talk

[1_21Guns]

the post aint pointless
and you see those 278 days?
you can make those again, you've done it once, you can do that and beyond.
it's a bump in the road, it doesn't make you a failure, it doesn't make you a fuck up.
we all slip up and make mistakes, best thing we can do is carry on and learn.
im here if you ever need someone to talk to,
278 days is amazing, and you can get so much further than that, i know it.
:hug: best of luck hun

[UnknownError]

278 days, thats AMAZING,
Dont let one small slip up put you down.
You can keep going, you've already done 278 days before, so you can do it again.
And no post on here is pointless.
Keep going and good luck. :hug3:

[georgiamay]

please don't bump old threads. Check the dates from the previous replies before posting. :locked: