I think it might be a disorder...

[screamtobeheard]

It's getting bad. It's consuming my life. All I can think about is how I can eat less or get away with eating less. My family and friends watch me. But I still try not to eat. I don't feel like I need it, and I hate when I do, no matter how much, what, or why. Usually I only eat because I have to. Like today. I ate a bagel thin (which is basically half a bagel) and a salad. Because I had no choice. And I still feel like a cow. I hate this. It's terrible. I know it's bad, but I do it anyway. I take diet pills my parents don't know I have. I measure myself all the time, and I exercise every minute I'm capable to burn off anything I've eaten and fat, too. But even when I lose weight, I feel fat. It just doesn't make sense to me. I'm over a half a foot taller than most of my friends, and I weigh at least five pounds less than them. But I still feel huge. All the time. I just can't understand this. But the thing is, I don't know if it's an eating disorder, or if I'm just a freak. Any advice?

[georgiamay]

I can't say for certain, but it sounds like an eating disorder. Have you tried talking to anyone about this? maybe they could help.
If you know that you weigh less than your friends, then keep telling yourself that if they're not huge, then there's no way you can be. I know you still feel it, but just repeat to yourself that you're not.

Maybe you should see your doctor about it, and maybe they can refer to to see a psychiatrist if they think you need it. It sounds to me like you might have a disorder, but I can't diagnose, but someone like a doctor can. Maybe telling your parents might help. admitting to someone that there's something wrong is a step towards getting better.

Good luck, PM me if you ever feel like you need to talk to someone, I'm always here :hug:

[Resistance]

Maybe you should see your doctor about it, and maybe they can refer to to see a psychiatrist if they think you need it. It sounds to me like you might have a disorder, but I can't diagnose, but someone like a doctor can. Maybe telling your parents might help. admitting to someone that there's something wrong is a step towards getting better.


i agree, see a doctor and talk to your famaly

take care

[screamtobeheard]

Thanks for the advice. (: I've thought about mentioning it to someone, just...something's stopping me. I don't know what it is. With any luck, I'll get the guts to just do it.

[welcome_to_chaos]

Just try and sit down w ur rents and tell them u need to see someone.. im not gunna say if its an ed or not..but it sounds like it and a little therepy and a nutritionist can so wonders if u let it