Lost

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Well... In the last few weeks alone I've:

Gotten drunk and cheated
Cutting has gotten worse
Think I might be depressed


I don't want my mum to know any of this. I've told my boyfriend it all, and a few friends. But I feel so lost. The other night I looked up common symptoms of depression and took an online test, just to see if its possible and if I should go to the doctor. The results weren't all that comforting and my boyfriend and friends are telling me to go to the doctor. But I don't want to. I'm not sure why though. I guess I feel that they'll think I'm exaggerating or something, or that they won't believe me. And if I'm not depressed then I'll be embarrassed. But I know something is wrong. I'm just not feeling right. I feel so lost and scared. I kind of feel alone, despite my support.

[Aspiringanonymous]

:hug3: If you feel that you might need help, then there's nothing at all to lose by giving yourself a chance to reach out. It's always daunting to approach a professional for the first time - what about having your boyfriend or someone else who understands, accompany you? Heck, they can even do the talking for you, just add the clarification that you don't feel comfortable doing it on your own. Feeling uneasy is natural, especially if you don't have experience with it, but you shouldn't let that uneasiness prevent you from getting the help necessary.

It's worth a try, hun. The support offered by friends clearly dosen't seem enough - which a sign that you should seek out additional supportive outlets.

Good luck with everything, hope it works out. :hug3:

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Thanks. I managed to get one part of my problem (one I didn't post) fixed so I'm not as stressed out. But I've been to the doctor about feeling a similar way before and I don't really want to go back, even though I know I should.