I'm alone....

[iEcho]

I feel alone all the time. I have friends, but I don't feel like I connect with them, really. Everyone at school keeps away from me. No one really likes to be around me it seems. I'm bullied constantly, I don't feel close with some of my family members, and my friends aren't always there. People say I'm an idiot, and I should kill myself. People mess with me all the time. There's this girl I like but she intentionally ignores me. She's like everyone else, she hates me. I don't know what to do, I can't talk to anyone. I kinda want a girlfriend. Not just to have one and be cool and shit, but to have someone who really cares about me and I can talk to, but no matter how hard I look, I can't find a Girlfriend, and friend, or anyone in my family to talk to. I see a therapist, but I don't feel anymore relieved. I'm fucking retarded, I want to die, but that would be a waste of time to god and the only thing I feel that I have been given. What the hell am I supposed to do, I have no fucking friends.

[DrkZ90]

I know exactly how you feel about that and how it is like,. I wish I had some good advice but I'm not really sure how to get myself out of a similar situation.

Just try making more, new, different friends, see if you can find people that actually care about you and want to be with you.

I'm here if you want to talk. I had sent you a pm since I felt it was better than posting here, but just remembered new members aren't allowed to send PMs until they have 100 posts...

[Tadgh]

just remembered new members aren't allowed to send PMs until they have 100 posts...

You're able to send pm's without 100 posts dude.. :)

[DarkHorses]

Hey Danny,

I know just how you feel. I deal with this a lot myself, and a few years ago I was pretty much right in your shoes. I didn't have any friends, and the people I spent time with didn't feel much like friends. I spent my time at school alone, and I was pretty depressed over it.

But then I realized that there's more to life than who you hang out with. I decided that I was going to be happy despite what people thought of me. It was obviously difficult, and it's easier said than done, but try not to worry so much about who likes you and who doesn't. We all go through periods where we don't have any people in our lives we can really call friends. I find that friends come along when you least expect it, not when you're desperate for them.

What I'm trying to say is that your problem may not be that you have no friends; it might be that you need to learn how to be happy regardless. Once you learn to be content with your life no matter who or what is in it, you tend to gain friends and things that might not expected. That's what has happened to me, anyways. Maybe you should also try to join clubs or after school activities in order to find some new people to hang out with. You might find new friends that way.

Good luck with everything. :)

[Contra]

I agree with everything that Amanda said.

The main thing is never to give up and lose hope. A lot of people feel that way too, but eventually they get through it. Try to find new people to relate to or connect in other ways with your friends, so you can find a friendly shoulder to cry on. You will get pass that, for sure. If you need anything I am here, talk to me, okay? Good luck.

[Resistance]

i know what you are feeling, it happen to me a few years ago. i had people that who i called friends but they never helped me when i need and i started to feel like you. i started to make new friends and it get better every single day. now i have real friends that talk to me when i need and i didn't feel that way .
if you want someone to talk i'm here for you :)

[Lostboy]

This is going to be long but plz read it. im very concerned about you, depression is scary and you should not try and deal with it a lone.

Your not a lone you have your VT mates to help you out on your lives journey. Struggles are needed in life, with out them we would be weak. with out obstacles we would be cripple. life is one big lesson and all you can do is learn from it. its up to you to make you feel better about yourself and your situation. surround yourself with positive people, it seems like you need a big change. forget about all the negative people, you don’t deserve that. and maybe a companion wouldn't be ideal right now. it would be unfair to put that pressure on a girl, you have to work on yourself if you want to be in a serious and healthy relationship. I too have been feeling depressed this week, but i have to keep telling my self that i have a lot to be thankful for. Even though I might of lost the love of my life.

Remember there’s always a light at the end of that tunnel don't lose faith or hope. you are apart of this world and we are all connected in some way. you belong here just as much as anyone else. God wants to help you, you just have to ask. prey with your heart for courage and strength to get thru this rough time. He will help I guarantee it.

Also try using these exercises, they really do help. I think everyone should do them. It will make anyone feel better about them self’s and others. take time to breath and relax for at least 5 min a day. Find a peaceful place outside and sit on the grass, take a deep breath and close your eyes. listen to nature, feel the wind blowing, the sun warming you, and feel the grass. get in touch with the pure potential of nature. take time to live and "just be". accept the unbounded creativity and pure potential of the universe.

Practice non-judgment, what i mean is don’t judge things as if they were good, bad, wrong, correct, awesome. count how many times a day you judge something, and realize how much pressure that puts on your mind body and heart. the truth is judging thins is a complete waist of time. and time is the most precious commodity we have on this planet. instead just learn the lesson from life’s situations. Accept people, situations, circumstances, and events for what they are even yourself. and know that thats how it should be. Dont fight having no control, insted let it go, you will feel so much better, because taking responsibility for anything will lead to blaming yourself, even when its not your fault. Every problem is an opportunity in disguise, and know that you can take that moment and transform it into a greater benefit for yourself.

Detach your self from others around you, and allow them to be as they are. trying to force solutions to ones problems often leads to new problems. detaching your self is very important. once you detach yourself you are more willing to accept uncertainty. you take in all the infanent possibilities and appreciate the excitement that occurs when you are open to an infinity of choices. you will then experience all the fun, adventure, magic, and mystery of life.

Thinking negative thoughts is blurring your perspective on life. all those thoughts are trash, useless garbage filling your mind so that you cant think in the peasant. let go of the past there is nothing you can do to change it. when your mind fills up you miss out on everything else life has to offer. let go of the emotions you feel about your family and your peers. its not your responsibility. you need to care for yourself. because in the end that’s all that matters. the universe will provide for you just give it a chance. You are just as important as anyone else on this earth, and you have been given this amazing gift of life. it would be foolish to throw it away.

I hope this helped. your not alone and nothing is your fault. thats how the universe should be. nothing ever ends its just transformed, maybe into something more beautiful, even the worst things in the universe are miracles. once you see the big picture you then realize your purpose in life.