End It Now

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

I want to end my life now. I have a headache from stress and i have insomnia, so im extremely tired the meds im taking; one melitonin, allergy and trazidone; only help me get to sleep, then i continue waking up every single hour. I have to clean my room or else something bad will happen but i cant or else my symptom will become OCD. I think im fat, i feel fat, im sick of being diagnosed with crap. My depression is getting worse, my agoraphobia is taking over my social life, im gonna stop im tired of typing now whatever. If i woke up tomorrow ill make a new thread.

[blah_x]

i promise you things can only get better, if yu are at rock bottom.
x

[Wish]

Hey sweetheart, how are you feeling today? I really hope that you managed to get through the night unharmed and understand how nighttimes are some of the hardest. It's incredibly isolating to be awake in the unseen hours, completely unable to get to sleep and practically frozen inside a pit of self-hatred and destruction. It seems that for you, your mind is focussed upon all the diagnoses you've been handed as well as an obsessive need to tidy your room. Can you tell me why you think something bad will happen if you don't keep things tidy? I realise that you do not want another diagnosis to add to your already present string, but perhaps this is better to get this sorted rather than you struggling like you are and hurting yourself immeasurably.

Meds can only take you so far with recovery, the rest is up to you. I know that's a bit of an irritating thing and seems to make it impossible, but it really isn't. Do you do anything to relax yourself just before bed? Scents such as lavender can help, as well as a long, hot bath. Reading/writing helps me, but exercise gets hormones racing that prevent me from sleeping. There are plenty of sites online that might help you with sleep issues.

I appreciate that you're tired of everything and completely exhausted, I get that things have been like this for a while for you. Maybe you could put your diagnoses to one side for a second and focus upon what you want 'fixing', as it were. Ignore all that they've thrown at you and be that person you want to be, not who you think you should be.

Take care.

[1_21Guns]

I want to end my life now. I have a headache from stress and i have insomnia, so im extremely tired the meds im taking; one melitonin, allergy and trazidone; only help me get to sleep, then i continue waking up every single hour. I have to clean my room or else something bad will happen but i cant or else my symptom will become OCD. I think im fat, i feel fat, im sick of being diagnosed with crap. My depression is getting worse, my agoraphobia is taking over my social life, im gonna stop im tired of typing now whatever. If i woke up tomorrow ill make a new thread.

:hug:

hun, it does get better someday, yeah, it might feel like your stuck in a shithole, but you can climb outta there, i know it's frustrating to be in and out of doctors, it just seems like a neverending circle which becomes really frustrating, are you seeing any councellers or anything about the agoraphobia?
good luck hun, i'm here for you if you need it :heart:

[Mike321]

It will get better some day, whether that be in days, weeks or months, I promise you it will get better.
You need to just keep going, and try and find something positve to focus on to help pull you out of this.
Have you got access to a councellor you can see about some of your problems, remember you can talk to any of us on here too
Hope your okay
PM me anytime