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[confusedgirl]

i cut myself last night, just little minor cuts it didnt hurt i just like to watch the blood show i feel weird saying it since i shouldnt like that but its true, and i really dont think i would ever try to really kill myself but last night laying down thinking of everything it seemed no one cared about me, im useless and its scary cuz that was the first time i actually considered just making it stop, i dont like thinking that way....

[Fiction]

Was last night the first time you cut? And the first time you think like this is alwasy the scariest, but it can also be the last time you think like this. Maybe you should talk to a friend or family member or just someone you trust about this. It's better to sort these things out before they become out of control. You can Vm me if you would like to talk :)

[DarkHorses]

Hey Michelle,

It's always scary the first time you have thoughts like this, and/or the first time you cut. I've been there before, and I know how overwhelming it can be. Since it's the first time you've felt like this, I think it's important for you to talk to someone about this before it gets worse.

I put off letting anyone know about my depression for awhile, and I regret it because if I had let someone know sooner I wouldn't have had to live so many months cutting and feeling alone like I did.

The fact is that you are not alone, and that there are a lot of people that care about you. Reach out to one of those people and tell them about how you're feeling, and how you felt when you cut. People care, and they'll want to help you.

I hope you don't have to go through that again, and if you do I hope you have someone to turn to who can help you through it. Good luck with everything. :)

[confusedgirl]

no its not the first time i have cut, its usually always high on my arm. i really dont think i would ever go through with it for my family n friends sake but i cant talk to them about it either. i have talked to my mom about going to therapy because theres stuff im not comfortable talking to her about but since im underage she would find out anyway, so theres no one to really talk to..and my one friend used to cut also and went to therapy and she doesnt cut anymore but i dont know what her reaction would be if i told her about me...