not again...

[ArtistInNeed]

after months of being somewhat happy and ok im, ofcourse, suicidal again..why wont it just leave me alone? Its like as soon as im happy it comes back. the urge is sooo overbearing. Im afraid to tell my bf, he was so proud of me for getting better. I havent talked to my therapist in almost a year..idk where he went he just dissapeared one day and now i cant even turn to him. What am i going to do? i want to cut so bad...

[Scarface]

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Well all have our ups and downs. Depression definitely can bring us down at anytime. This is just one of your down times. You don't have to cut hun. Maybe you should start talking to a therapist again. They really help. When you feel you can talk to someone about how you're feeling and some of your problems. it sure takes a load off of your shoulders. You can be happy again, trust me hun we all have our slumps, but don't let it internalize and fester to the point to where you need to cut, because it never helps. i think your best option would be to find a better counselor that way you have someone to talk to. Maybe at school or outside of school. Depression can be a tough thing, but don't let it beat you down, everything will get better for you, just hang in there. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to, just don't give up.

[steve1234]

I recently had a very long period of depression, and a couple of weeks ago me and family went on holiday, and all my worries were left behind at home, and I finally started to enjoy myself and be happy, but the moment I came home, it all came back, and I'm back to thinking unhappy thoughts.

I haven't really got any advice, I just thought I'd share something to show that loads of people have the 'ups and downs'.

[ArtistInNeed]

:hug3:

Well all have our ups and downs. Depression definitely can bring us down at anytime. This is just one of your down times. You don't have to cut hun. Maybe you should start talking to a therapist again. They really help. When you feel you can talk to someone about how you're feeling and some of your problems. it sure takes a load off of your shoulders. You can be happy again, trust me hun we all have our slumps, but don't let it internalize and fester to the point to where you need to cut, because it never helps. i think your best option would be to find a better counselor that way you have someone to talk to. Maybe at school or outside of school. Depression can be a tough thing, but don't let it beat you down, everything will get better for you, just hang in there. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to, just don't give up.
I wish i could get a new therapist :( i dont have insurance though... im stuck with noone..

[Scarface]

There are free ones also. They should have some in your area. You don't have to be alone. If you need someone to talk to I'm always here hun, hang in there :hug3: