happiness?

[LiGHT]

Hello all, damn its been a while. But lately I have really needed help and i know this is the right place. I'm not sure if this will help but in 7thgrade i started loosing weight and working out a ton and loosing weight, i was at 132 and like maybe 5'7 and my doctor said it was perfect. I kept loosing weight until i was sickly skinny and i hadn't even realized and my dad sat me down and told me i was anorexic. To tell you the truth even after he told me that I still havn't gotten over it. 2 years later, now im going to be a freshman in highschool. I have depression (im pretty sure) and i don't eat at all anymore. Last week i weighed i was 143 and this week i went to get my physical and i had lost about 6 pounds in a course of 4 days, 137.7 and it keeps going down. i barely eat and when i do i feel extremely bad and i feel like i dont deserve having this. I believe that noone will like me if im not skinny and my acne and glasses and braces just makes everything worse. I feel like I don't belong anywhere and im too scared and sad to ask for help. I really need your advice here from anyone. Im terribly scared to even bring up the idea of anorexia to my doctor, I believe I have and i keep seeing myself get fatter everyday and im getting sadder and more depressed with all my problems with girls and my feelings and my friends.
im scared shitless, everyone has a friend they can talk to about everything and be trusted but not me. i don't know happiness as of now. I can't even tell myself to be happy or have any self confidence. i am sorry.
I am 14 5'9. 136lbs.

[Fiction]

I strongly suggest you talk to a doctor about this before it gets dangerous. Maybe you could talk to your dad about it and get him to come with you to the doctors? You can Pm me at any time and you can trust me :)

[DieInAFire]

I used to be anorexic too, but then I pulled through and now I weigh the average for my age. If you want to talk about it with me, private message me, okay? and I'm on pretty often so anytime.