What do you think?

[fossil]

Ok. I need your opinion on this.

I am 15 y.o almost 16. and I do not know, actually cannot configure my sexual orientation. I am "proud and confident" with what I am, or what I have done till now, and I do not regret for anything, or even want some things to be different. I am good for now, and I think I like the way I feel.
But, when it comes to sexuality I cannot find my self. I feel I am straight/curios, but I think I am wrong. I am a normal guy, have friends, boys and girls, go out, have fun, like everybody else. But nobody knows that I like boys, or they are not sure. I have many times told my friends that I am Bi, sometimes gay, sometimes straight. But that looks like joking and the most find that like, I don't know, Joke.
I live in Macedonia, far from the States. The country policy is conservationist, and people do not accept no-straight guys easily (officially), if nothing else the adults don't accept.
But the younger population -80% of people I know at least curious, and they can understand if someone is gay/Bi.... and don't mind or have problem. Maybe because I feel easy and not worried to just tell what I am. Most of the people if nothing else have jerked together, each-other.
But the problem is, I do not know my sexual orientation. :D lol
I consider not myself as gay/girliness. No way. I mean I can accept but I do not like that. I have one friend, and if I want to have sex with a boy, i won't choose him, or maybe at the end :confused:. I mean I like boys, but straight, Bi, or Gay but strong (emotionally) boys.
In other hand, I like girls, too. It depends of the phase/period I am in. But I am always a good friend with them, treat them well, have some attractions, but never done something seriously, recently.
I go on coffee, drinks, doing "bad" stuff with boys and girls, have fun, but more often with boys.:D
Also when two of my friends, boy and girl are in relationship, I feel happy for them, but also want to "eat" them, have them, and make sex with them :D. But I stick to the ground and do nothing, except if they are interested :D. But that didn't happened, yet.
I have never been in relationship with a girl, but I have flirted and liked some girls. Also never kissed a girl, except when I was very young, but i do not remember that clear. Nothing special.
It depends to the time, but more often I am attracted to boys. It is in me, bigger than me, in my heart maybe, blood.

Lets it say like this. My first "bad" thing with girl was when i was 5-6 y.o., and for that age was quite bad, but i'd say maybe was just a kids' play. We were touching our-selfs, my little penis on her little vagina :D. A friend-boy was watching.
The second "bad" thing with girl was on 11 y.o. age. My friend-girl, I, and my brother, plus 2 friends-boys, but they went home found a porn magazine. She was a little bit "confused" about the penis head and the foreskin, so I must show her and explain.
And that would be all with the girls, for now.
But the things with boys are more on the list. So I'll just say that I was showing, touching, jerking off each-other or just jerk off (which is less common), watching porn, but just few times :D, the other times where just between us, having orgasms, and "extazies", playing with our dicks, swording, and once sucking :D
I have done this about 20 times, with 7 guys. :D

But, always but.
Maybe i find boys more attracting for me, but I am also a "family" man, wife, kids etc.
It is kinda i am curious for girls
This got too long, I will lose the point.

Lets just say that I am a human who can love boys and girls, have sex, give help etc. to love the people, even i am a little more attracted to boys.
But still i am not sure i am Bi or gay :confused:
I mean i find fun everywhere, i can love a boy, but i also know that it can go further. Maybe like a best friend, who i love and have sex with him, help everytime and everything else, but nothing more. Because i might have a wife. But I wouldn't like to lose him. Like a big family. And if my wife (when i have one) is open-minded, and close to my orientation, it will be the best situation i ever hoped. But not to leave the kids on their own. I won't give out that responsibility, to care for them, and grow them to good persons.

What do you think?

Use the edit button in future, don't double post - Kaius

[Andrzej]

Well, I do not think you are gay, because you said you are attracted to both boys and girls. So I think you are bisexual, but more attracted to boys from what you have said. There is nothing wrong with that.

I don't think this is anything to worry about. You can still be bisexual, and also be a "family man". Also, you are still going through puberty, so your hormones are going crazy. Don't worry, you still have plenty of time to figure out your sexuality :)

And that would be all with the girls, for now.
But the things with boys are more on the list. So I'll just say that I was showing, touching, jerking off each-other or just jerk off (which is less common), watching porn, but just few times , :D the other times where just between us, having orgasms, and "extazies", playing with our dicks, swording, and once sucking :D
I have done this about 20 times, with 7 guys. :D

That is understandable. Most boys are sexually curious and some experiment with each other. That does not mean that they are gay or bisexual. They could be, but they are most likely straight/curious.

[fossil]

You know, it is like I feel straight but like boys. That's in one sentence. :D

[Dunce]

Being gay doesnt mean you're girly and like boys. It simply means you like boys. Some gay men are more feminine than straight men but not necessarily. So dont let your lack of femininity throw you off thinking you might be gay. From what I've read you are more emotionally attracted to boys... but for now I think you may be bisexual. Don't feel pressure to label yourself just yet... give yourself time to see what you like, and be honest with yourself.
I'm sexually confused to *highfives*.

[fossil]

yeah, I think I agree about that.

I actually do not see people like gay, bi or straight. It doesn't make any difference to me. And maybe that's why I cannot tell for sure what I am. I know that I want to be free, be and do what I feel. And I do feel a lot, so I cannot specify my sexuality.

I am not that confused or not sure about my feelings, I like the way it is now, and I am quite sure that I will feel the same whole my life.

I will see, what my life will bring to me.

Thanks again. ;) :)

[chazzrox2]

I think its safe to say you've had a fair amount of experience with guys but that doesn't mean you're definitely gay, i guess some people can know all their lives wether they are gay or not and this could be due to their upbringing and how accepted sexuality is in their own culture.
But again your still only young and you have plenty of time to have more experience with girls, focus on proper relationships with both sexes, and if you can't decide then you could be bi who knows? You will one day don't worry.

It could simply be your upbrining and the culture around you that makes you long for a traditionally "normal" family, but it is of course your decision and there are many strange (too us) relationships out there, so anything can work

Hope I helped atleast a little

[fossil]

You helped a lot.

But again your still only young and you have plenty of time to have more experience with girls, focus on proper relationships with both sexes, and if you can't decide then you could be bi who knows? You will one day don't worry.

^^^ especially this one... I do feel attracted to girls, but till now i was just not sure if I am not capable to care for a girl as my girlfriend, not to hurt her feelings and understand her. I think as I joined the forum I got more free to express myself, and actually got more attracted to girls. I have never had the courage to say, hey why not I can love a girl, have girlfriend, and be in a relationship with a girl. What am I so indifferent? You know I have almost always seen girls as friends, but I think from this month I feel a difference. I am still attracted to boys, but there is a difference now.

As you said, i have a lot of time, and still young. So i think i will take the chance for new experience, and do some changes in my life. Why not, maybe it will work.

We will see.

Thank you a lot. You did make me to think for it. And i think i thought well.

Thanks again :) ;)

[xHunterXloganx]

I think your a wondeful person! :D

[fossil]

^^^ Thank you... ;)

As the days go by, things get clearer and I have those instant pop-ups, new attitudes, which were following me whole life, and suggested what should i do, an instinct maybe.

So I have always had that opinion, but sometimes i forget for a while, or not into it. But when something happens, it will initiate the following opinion. Why straight men (~80% less, or more, can't label) can be "dirty", with no feelings, they think that there are cool, and can do whatever they want, not thinking or just to say dirty words about girls, but they are the opposite in the reality.... And the worst is that the girls like that.... poor..

Especially in the (late) puberty, when the quantity of testosterone is huge.... I mean they lost their minds, they think like they are the most superior being on the planet as an individual... they overestimating themselves...

And I don't like that, I mean I have periods, too, but I try to balance....

Maybe that is why I don't want to consider my self as straight, I mean maybe that is from person to person different, but it is a social phenomena that everybody who considers himself as straight, can be strong, cool etc. Especially after the period of being not sure about their sexuality, so it comes like a triumph if they find themselves as straight... weird.... and don't know for the whole world, but i know that this is the way in my country, or community.... very sad, unfortunate... actually for them....

I have a friend who 4 years ago wanted to touch my dick, and now he love to see dirty, raping porn, with "sluts", i don't get it, yes he can change but he is too.... or he started listening rock, and metal, but before didn't know anything about it... and not in his heart, even now, just to bee seen as he do something cool, meant to be cool, or whatever.... those people do not have their unique, special, stable and firm personality....

You know, like I am scared to be straight....

[LittleMonsterMike]

I think your physical attracted to males but emotionally attracted to females happens to me all the time

[TheFame]

Emotional Attractions are more powerfull than sexual.

I dont want to make any assumptions because you still need to find who you are.

At the points of this i think you may be gay or bi. I think theres a higher chance of you being gay.

Remeber girlyness has nothing to do with who you love :P

And try to be truthfull to your self. Dont be in denial and say "well maybe i like girls so i could be bi"

Try to be 100% honest with yourself. Pretend that you were in a world where being straight is not accepted and being gay is proper.

Then think what you really are.

[fossil]

So.... this is getting not that easy.....

Oh i haven't seen a friend since we ended school...about two month.... and i saw him today... I really like him.... i did hug him, don't carry if my or his friends watch us and think something.... i just did jumped into his hands, also kissed him on the neck, but secretly, i haven't seen him for 2 months... :D, but he is quite straight, has a girlfriend, but almost always we are like touching or joking or hugging sometimes, kiss our cheeks, necks..... lol... we do act straight or just hide it so no-one bothers us...

And i like him, but............ ah, why is so complicate......

[niceguy44]

i think you're bisexual . at the moment you are going through puberty. your hormones are working.you like girls but at the moment prefer boys.
a lot of boys experiment with their own sex when they're teens.
it may be a phase you're going through.
just wait and see