georgiamay
August 18th, 2010, 02:56 PM
ok, so for the last few weeks, i´ve been cutting down on eating.
I´ve notices it more now i´m on holiday, because when we go out to eat, which we do for all 3 meals, i eat as little as possible.
I´m not sure why, everything there on my plate just looks like a plate full of calories and fat.
I try to eat as much as i can to stop my parents asking any questions, and i do like eating the food if it tastes nice, i just end up stopping myself.
Once i noticed it in the restaurant, i realised i was doing a few weeks before we went away, but its just become a bit more obvious to me now.
I really don´t know what it is, i know it´s not an eating disorder. At least i think it´s not.
I just try not to eat too much. I have a few mouth fulls, and then i push the food around on my plate to make it look like i´ve eaten more than i have.
At dinner i always have 3 courses, but i never want desert, because it´s mostly calories and fat. but my dad would find it odd if i was the only one at the table without a desert.
I always feel so guilty and so fat after i´ve eaten, but i don´t feel full, and i dont want to feel full. Does that make any sense?
I´m not sure what to do, because it doesn´t seem like an ED, but i don´t think its anything good.
Even at breakfast i try to make it look like i´ve eaten most if it, but really i´ve only eaten about 2 mouth fulls, and before i came on holiday, i used to fill my cereal bowl up with milk, and put a few bits of cereal in there and put it in the sink, so it looked like i´d eaten. I´m pretty sure this isn´t normal?
What is this? It doesn´t seem like an ED, but i´ve never had one, so i just don´t know...
I´ve notices it more now i´m on holiday, because when we go out to eat, which we do for all 3 meals, i eat as little as possible.
I´m not sure why, everything there on my plate just looks like a plate full of calories and fat.
I try to eat as much as i can to stop my parents asking any questions, and i do like eating the food if it tastes nice, i just end up stopping myself.
Once i noticed it in the restaurant, i realised i was doing a few weeks before we went away, but its just become a bit more obvious to me now.
I really don´t know what it is, i know it´s not an eating disorder. At least i think it´s not.
I just try not to eat too much. I have a few mouth fulls, and then i push the food around on my plate to make it look like i´ve eaten more than i have.
At dinner i always have 3 courses, but i never want desert, because it´s mostly calories and fat. but my dad would find it odd if i was the only one at the table without a desert.
I always feel so guilty and so fat after i´ve eaten, but i don´t feel full, and i dont want to feel full. Does that make any sense?
I´m not sure what to do, because it doesn´t seem like an ED, but i don´t think its anything good.
Even at breakfast i try to make it look like i´ve eaten most if it, but really i´ve only eaten about 2 mouth fulls, and before i came on holiday, i used to fill my cereal bowl up with milk, and put a few bits of cereal in there and put it in the sink, so it looked like i´d eaten. I´m pretty sure this isn´t normal?
What is this? It doesn´t seem like an ED, but i´ve never had one, so i just don´t know...