Fuchs
August 17th, 2010, 06:36 AM
so, i guess the title says it all, my marks in my last lot of exams where terrible, i failed chemistry, barely passed the rest, so thats the first thing thats got me down. Now every tuesday theres an optional chemistry lesson which i cant attend since i have to work and i start earlier on tuesdays. So the chemistry teacher rings my dad, at dinner tonight i get screamed at by him, i look to mum for some support and i get nothing. So i storm out, get in my car and drive off, very recklessly. Second, everyone at school is so self obsessed, all they ever do is expect me to shit for them and when i cant, im the worst person in the world, it's gotten to the point where i cant stand any of them, the only thing stopping me from disconnecting is that the last time i did that people when to my english teacher who kept pulling me out of classes to talk to me cause she thought i was going to kill myself. Third is my boyfriend, it'll only be 2 months next week and there's already cracks starting to form. He's always so pissed off with his parents and it filters through into the relationship. When we were waiting for his train on sunday i got a big lecture about what im doing next year which turned into a mini fight. And if he's not bitching about his parents he's off gaming with a friend of his, which is also a tender subject between me and him. I just dont know what to do, im not motivated at school, at home i feel trapped. The only way im dealing with all of this is by going into my room and just listening to my music really loud, which is typically screamo, which more often then not just starts another fight, and when im not in my room im usually outside, sucking down as many cigarettes as i can. Im sorry for such a huge wall of text but i really just need some help right now