Can't be bothered anymore

[SecretHarmer]

Hi all,
I just can't be bothered anymore.
I feel so lonely all the time, our family isn't that functional we all just do are own thing, eat are tea seperately and never spend much time together.
I have a new bunch of friends, there so nice but still getting used to them so i wait til they invite me out to go out, we went out today and it was great but now the day's over i miss the people and feel lonely again.
Also friends aren't always free, and now and again i'm a bit busy but most days i don't do much really.
I know this sounds crazy, but sometimes i don't even know how i feel about things, other people seem so like, good in their own person and they can make there own choices and opinions about things but i never know what to think about certain things... it's hard to explain.
I'm at my lowest point, i'm no good at talking about things and i don't want people to think i'm always like depressed but i'm so down, i could cry all the time. Sometimes i feel like some people may not like me enough to ask me to come out, even though they invited me today.
I suppose i don't have someone i trust to speak about things to. Wow it really does suck.

[XpopularX]

I see u have it tough but life go's up once it go's down.

[Fiction]

I know how you feel, i've felt like this before. I know you won't believe me when i say this but Tanaka was right, life does has it's ups and downs.You should make the most of having these friends, try to get closer to them. They sound like they could be a vital part in making you feel happier again. You can trust me and you can talk to me.You can vm whenever you like :) Hope i helped.

[Art_dude]

I've been there hun :/
And it ain't fun.
I think what you're realizing is that yes, you can't always be with your friends. That's why it's so important to make sure you're best friends with yourself and you're comfortable in your own skin. It's great to have friends to distract you when you're depressed sometimes, but don't allow them to mask your real issues. They can't make you happy - only you can. I know what you mean about the opinion thing too... I was so indifferent when I was younger that someone could probably have convinced me left was right and right was left. The remedy is to do your own thing and get to know yourself. And all of this starts with learning to accept and love yourself no matter what :)

[SecretHarmer]

Thanks for the replies.
Feeling a bit better today actually, my mum got me a new phone so chuffed with that. Obviously i still do feel a bit down, but i'm seeing life does have it's ups and downs.
I'm gonna try and keep myself busy and not let my mind wonder too much, well the best i can do is try.
thanks for the support. xx