Fred
August 16th, 2010, 08:18 AM
Finally after 3 years I think I'm hitting my limit. I can't take crying myself to sleep every night, I can't take feeling like I've been punched in the gut whenever I think about her, I can't take always being scared shitless, wondering if she still loves me and if she's ok.
Basically this all revolves around my girlfriend of now almost 3 years. We were good friends prior to our relationship, and despite a very rocky beginning we've spent most of our relationship very close and deeply in love. We'd share everything, and would always be there for each other to talk and hold each other through the tough times.
Then, after about 14 months together, she announced her family was moving away, to a country town about 90 minutes away. Then four months later they did just that. I was devastated, and became pretty depressed for a couple of months following, but we still got to see each other every two weeks or so and we began to get used to it. Then, about 6 months ago, we started seeing each other less and less. She got a job, school got more intense and she began to move completely from her old town to her new one. It began to get rocky, but we got by.
Then suddenly, this. I don't know what's happened, if it got too hard for her, if she forgot what she loved about me or what, but I'm scared. We now only see each other every 6 weeks or so, but even that I could live with, because she's my world, and just those two days in heaven could make up for 6 weeks of loneliness. But about a month ago she became more subdued, and now she hardly wants to talk or see me at all, and I have to force a simple "I love you" out of her, after the page long emails I send her saying how much I do just that.On the rare occasion she is willing to talk to me, she'll insist there's nothing wrong before making an excuse to leave.
I'm totally confused and lost. I feel like maybe I should let her move on, but she at least says that's definitely not what she want. She's everything I live for, and I can't imagine going on without her. Just thinking that she might not want to be with me any more has caused me to become depressed to the point where I have put on weight, slipped in school, lost many of my friends and am often sick from stress. I know this seems ridiculous and it probably is, but she's my whole world, and I just can't go on without her. What can I do to get her to tell me what's going on? And what can I do to detach myself more? Or at least stop being so dangerously depressed? Apologies for the life story, but I really, really need help.
Thanks :)
Basically this all revolves around my girlfriend of now almost 3 years. We were good friends prior to our relationship, and despite a very rocky beginning we've spent most of our relationship very close and deeply in love. We'd share everything, and would always be there for each other to talk and hold each other through the tough times.
Then, after about 14 months together, she announced her family was moving away, to a country town about 90 minutes away. Then four months later they did just that. I was devastated, and became pretty depressed for a couple of months following, but we still got to see each other every two weeks or so and we began to get used to it. Then, about 6 months ago, we started seeing each other less and less. She got a job, school got more intense and she began to move completely from her old town to her new one. It began to get rocky, but we got by.
Then suddenly, this. I don't know what's happened, if it got too hard for her, if she forgot what she loved about me or what, but I'm scared. We now only see each other every 6 weeks or so, but even that I could live with, because she's my world, and just those two days in heaven could make up for 6 weeks of loneliness. But about a month ago she became more subdued, and now she hardly wants to talk or see me at all, and I have to force a simple "I love you" out of her, after the page long emails I send her saying how much I do just that.On the rare occasion she is willing to talk to me, she'll insist there's nothing wrong before making an excuse to leave.
I'm totally confused and lost. I feel like maybe I should let her move on, but she at least says that's definitely not what she want. She's everything I live for, and I can't imagine going on without her. Just thinking that she might not want to be with me any more has caused me to become depressed to the point where I have put on weight, slipped in school, lost many of my friends and am often sick from stress. I know this seems ridiculous and it probably is, but she's my whole world, and I just can't go on without her. What can I do to get her to tell me what's going on? And what can I do to detach myself more? Or at least stop being so dangerously depressed? Apologies for the life story, but I really, really need help.
Thanks :)