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[remeberme11]

i dont know if this is place to put this thread


any way


so today i ran away i was working for my mum in her pub washing the dishes for the restraunt like i do every fkn weekend since feb and i got sick of it so my mums bf comes in to the wash room and says "you coping ok?" i say "yes" so he asks "why you not talking" and mones at me about not talking and says some stuff about every 1 being bizzy so i tell him to "p**s of" and walk out so i went in to a near by feeld after getting my savings in my room so i studiedly took my phone 2 so i was sitting in the feeld and got bord so i turnd my phone on and took some photos cos i was ment to take photos of my holiday for school so i went for a walk in the woods eventually my phone was going mad with phone calls and texts so i finally called back so i ended up apologising to her bf and my mum and now shes saying were moving back to our old house b4 we moved in with him but i don't want to move back and so now shes saying that were going back to the old house for a couple days but it sucks cos there's spiders and no tv or nothing i hate it but this has happened b4 but i never achaly ran away i just started packing my stuf in to the car and demanding we go back to our old house so i try to get along with him but he just mones about any thing and every thing and i fix stuff all the time and i never get the credit i just get told to do something else and i haven't been eating properly lately i just haven't been hungry iv probably had about 5 proper meals in 7 weeks i dont know if its the fact of washing the dishes every weekend that sickens me seeing all that food i dident eat lunch at school for most of the year and usd my lunch money to buy stuf so i gess im rambling on about my life and how it sucks well its not that bad but iv thaugt about suicide lodes of times and i had some problems with life when i was in primary school any way thats about it i gess im just venting it and sorry for rambling on

[drac]

Ok, I'd think its the right place for the thread

Don't be sorry for rambling on it may help to post everything you feel as a release. I'm the same age, had similar problems and just writing down your feelings and fears e.c.t. can help. Be happy you've apologized. Its not a sign of defeat. As for the work, You seem to get irritated by people bothering you e.g. People saying "Are you OK?," your mum's boyfriend seems to do that well. Just try to let it go over your head. Also, as seen my first 12 years of life were in the UK, by law and dependent on by-laws on work Your not supposed to be working if your employer - which is your parent(mum) - has not got a permit for you. But back to the issue. You say you haven't had the appetite to eat, which you seem to pin on the pot-washing. Well that might mean you might have a deeper emotional hole. Hence, the suicidal thoughts. (btw which i have had).

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