16 days

[celine93]

So I haven't cut in 16 days. This is the longest I've ever gone.
I don't feel like I want to do it again- the thought of cutting makes me shiver.
But things aren't getting any easier at home and I'm stressing because I get my exam results on thursday. Things are still a bit weird with my best friend after she told me she wanted to SH because I hurt her.
I can't find a way to deal with all this.
I am constantly moody and distant. I don't want to be around anyone.
I wanna hurt myself, but I don't want to cut and ruin my 16 days when I don't feel the need for cutting.
I'm trying to think of my productive ways to take advantage of my not wanting to cut and feeling this way, but I can't.
I started a journal a month ago- it's good for getting rid of an initial emotion or feeling, but it doesn't help the actual problem.
I really don't want to relapse. But I don't know how else to put up with these people I live with anymore!

Kate

[Fiction]

I am in exactly the same position as you atm. Starting a journal is a good idea, and when you say it doesn't help with the actual problem, neither does cutting! I don't really know what to suggest asyou don't even feel the need for cutting...but maybe you should use something as a distraction? Or Try to solve your problems, maybe talk to your friend about it?
I know the feeling of not wanting tobe around people but sometimes forcing myself to be around people I know usually make me happy does help me to cheer up :)
Hopei helped, Vm me anytime :)

[celine93]

Thanks for the reply.
It does make sense to try to be around people, but it usually makes me more stressed out and upset because my family annoy me and agrivate me so much.
If I'm gonna beat my 16 days I'm going to need to try to stay away from them.
But I hope you come up with something too.
Maybe I'll just keep going with my journal, because it's obviously done something to help so far.

Kate

[MadManWithaBox]

Nice. That's excellent sweetheart, well done. Keep it going, no matter how hard it gets.

[georgiamay]

first of all, well done on the 16 days, thats really good :D keep going.

Nothing in your life is worth doing this to yourself, it really isn´t.
It might seem like it at the time, when you want to cut, but you´ll realise afterwards that it really wasn´t worth it.
Keep telling yourself that you don´t want to relapse.
When you feel like you want to cut, just tell yourself that you dont want to.

PM me if you ever need to talk, i´m always here :hug:

[Mike321]

Well done for the 16 days, thats really good
As the other have said really, its never worth cutting yourself over, even though it does seem like a good thing to do at the time
I've relapased many times, and its not something iI want to go back to
Just keep focused on your journal, as this is something you can use to take your mind off it and help you to express your emotions
Keep going, dont give up, it'll be worth the fight in the end
PM anytime if you need someone to talk to

[Fiction]

I did say people that usually make me happy...which doesn't include my parents either.