Schon
August 15th, 2010, 02:51 AM
Okay... Well this has been bothering me a lot for quite some time now, so I figured i would come here and see what people think.
Maybe like two months ago I started talking to this girl that is a grade below me (I will be a sophomore) on facebook and keep in mind I have never met her in person. I have seen her in person. But for some reason i cant get the balls to talk to her. But thats the weird part. I've never talked to her in person, but i talk to her SOMETIMES on facebook and i already have an uncontrollable love for her... I really have no sexual desire at all, i just... i dont know i can't explain it. I would sacrifice my life if it kept her from shedding a single tear, from getting a single little scratch, and everyone that knows I like her says that If i just act like myself she will like me witch is possible, however she possesses MUCH greater looks than myself, and we all know that most 'teens' just like you for how you look, and really... i am not a very good looking guy, if i could loose maybe 50 pounds i would actually look good in my own opinion. And I gurantee i did not fall just for her looks. My point being i'm sure she could find a guy that is much easier on the eyes and has an equally positive personality.
Recently i found a friend of hers that will try to help me inject myself into her life. we'll see how that goes. If she rejects me which i totally understand if she does, i dont know it might push me into suicide. because i am really depressed as it is just thinking about how slim the chances of us are.
i really have no way to explain the deepness of my love for her especially considering i have never talked to her in person before... Other than we were ment to be together. With that in mind i feel better about everything, In the sense that if it is ment to be, someday it will happen.
What i'm asking is... what the hell should I do? How can this be explained? where can I find the courage to talk to her? And also being the socally awkward person I am (i've never had a girlfriend before so this is a difficult thing for me to just jump into) how can i just be myself around her?
Maybe like two months ago I started talking to this girl that is a grade below me (I will be a sophomore) on facebook and keep in mind I have never met her in person. I have seen her in person. But for some reason i cant get the balls to talk to her. But thats the weird part. I've never talked to her in person, but i talk to her SOMETIMES on facebook and i already have an uncontrollable love for her... I really have no sexual desire at all, i just... i dont know i can't explain it. I would sacrifice my life if it kept her from shedding a single tear, from getting a single little scratch, and everyone that knows I like her says that If i just act like myself she will like me witch is possible, however she possesses MUCH greater looks than myself, and we all know that most 'teens' just like you for how you look, and really... i am not a very good looking guy, if i could loose maybe 50 pounds i would actually look good in my own opinion. And I gurantee i did not fall just for her looks. My point being i'm sure she could find a guy that is much easier on the eyes and has an equally positive personality.
Recently i found a friend of hers that will try to help me inject myself into her life. we'll see how that goes. If she rejects me which i totally understand if she does, i dont know it might push me into suicide. because i am really depressed as it is just thinking about how slim the chances of us are.
i really have no way to explain the deepness of my love for her especially considering i have never talked to her in person before... Other than we were ment to be together. With that in mind i feel better about everything, In the sense that if it is ment to be, someday it will happen.
What i'm asking is... what the hell should I do? How can this be explained? where can I find the courage to talk to her? And also being the socally awkward person I am (i've never had a girlfriend before so this is a difficult thing for me to just jump into) how can i just be myself around her?