I need it.

[Keats]

i haven't cut in like 3 days
but i need it, i can't stop myself much longer.
arguments with family,
stuff like, i'm the reason why the family is unhappy, that they don't like who i am.
what am i meant to do.
i can't keep cutting.
but i need to.
i miss short sleeves, but not enough to stop yet.
nothings working.
i hate my life.
cutting makes everything okay for a bit.
surely thats better than nothing?

[Scarface]

I know how it feels to be blamed for a family that is dysfunctional. As that was what happened with me for most of my life. The best thing to do is to let most of that B.S. go in one ear and out the other that way you don't internalize all of their shit. You already have three days going here, why go back? Cutting never solves any of your problems. It's just that temporary numbness that only covers up your problems for that moment. Then you're right back to where you were. Except now you have a scab and it's more temptation. It's not a good addiction. You don't have to cut over this. You can wear short sleeves again, just don't start up again. Even though those scars won't go away, right away, they will. Why make more scars? You're on a roll don't throw that all away. Don't let what your parents or anyone says about who you are make an impact like this because then you'll start to believe it and it's not your fault. You can be free of cutting. It's just a hard road to stop, but you can do it. Just don't give up. :hug3:

[niko0202]

Family URGH.
Well Trust me i know all about messed up familys its the reason i started to re-cut i was doing so well 4months! Honestly the only way I cope is by telling myself that i'm not gonna ever be like them that as soon as I'm 18 I'm outta ther like lightning. I know what you mean about how they don't know you. I feel the same there always telling me stuff that i don't care about asking me why i don't do this telling me off because i'm not like my Brother ect...
I also understand about how cutting makes everything feel alright that is exactly how i started again, just because of some messed up family event. They don't even realize that they destroy me they think i'm some happy average child...
Like i said the only way I know how to cope is to think of the Future and how everything will be fine when your away from them and living your own life your own way, even thought the future also scares me a lot its the only way i get trought every day by thinking about tommorow not about yesterday or not about what happend today.
But now that ive started again i think i'm really screwed...

[ackmedsgirl666]

heyy i know how you feel. my step mother always puts the blame on me for every fucking thing. cutting isn't that good for you or your self esteem but im not here to tell you what right or wrong but heres a method to try. whenever u feel like picking up a sharp item and dragging it across your skin tell yourself this isn't worth it im worth so much more then take a deep breath and walk away. i know this may not seem easy but there are many ppl out there who have probably tried what i just said.
good luck!

[Keats]

i need it so badly.
i accidentally cut my thumb and i'm loving it.
it's been to long since i last did it.
and really want to feel it.

[Fiction]

Look Will, you can always talk to me you know that. :(

[Mike321]

Try and keep fighting it if you can.
I know how you feel about family related stuff and how stressful it can be, just dont let it get to you, as it only adds more pressure on to you
PM me anytime, if you need to talk

[Keats]

yay back to school.
year of GCSE's, no pressure.
how am i meant to function under that pressure, having other peoples idea's shoved into my head, ontop of cutting, my ex, scars, and everything else shit in my life, which seems like most stuff.
what the fuck am i meant to do, when this year dictates my future and yet i still can't get the motivation to do anything. how am i meant to move on. i don't even know how to explain half of the stuff.
so yeah..
i don't know.

[blah_x]

i understand you too barnsey.. times i would only love to hack and slash at my scars.. its hard to resist, and no-matter how many people tell you not to, you just cant help it.
i dont know if this has been off any benefit to you, but just wanted you to know there are others like yu :)

[georgiamay]

if you do cut, i can garuntee you it won't be worth it.
I know it's hard to stop, i've been there, but i haven't cut now in 73 days and i'm so glad i decided to stop.
Have you told anyone about your self harm? Maybe it's time to do so. Find someone that you trust to tell, and they'll support you, and be a shoulder to cry on for you. It'll be worth it if it leads to you stopping, and then you'll be able to wear short sleeves again.

I know it's hard, but it really is worth it.
I'm here if you ever need to talk, i'll listen to you :)
VM or PM me if you ever want to talk :hug:

[Keats]

a couple people know.
well. kinda.
two people i actually know in person, half know.
they know i used to. and that i gave up for a month or two while i was seeing a girl.
but then she dumped me and i relapsed. badly.
they probably know.
but i haven't told them.
but thats a different story.