Why can't I stop?

[xlovexkurtx]

Lately I've been cutting when I'm in ANY kind of emotional distress. I freak out over the smallest things. Also, when I do cut, I am so angry that I just keep slashing without thinking, and end up with 20-30 cuts every time I do it, which is almost daily. It didn't use to be this way. I haven't even been cutting for a year, and it's already this bad. I've tried to quit so many times but I just can't. I can't help but wonder if it's this bad now, what will it be like in two years? Three? I really don't want to die, but I'm so afraid that it will get so bad that one fuck up will be enough to kill me. How did this happen? How can I make it not get any worse?

[Fiction]

I know exactly how you feel, I was asking myself the same questions a few months ago and now i've gone 19 days without cutting.
Cutting is addictive. This means that it is hard to give up and that you will have to cut more to give yourself the same kick.
The only way to stop is to try. You have to want to stop and i'm not going to pretend it's easy. The best way i've fouhd is getting rid of my blades. I know you think you'll regret this, and you will when you want to cut, but it means you can show yourself your world doesn't come to an end without your blades.
Good luck and hope i helped :) You can Pm me if you ever want to talk :)
Plus... I love your pic... Kurt cobain is one of the most awesome people who ever lived :D

[MadManWithaBox]

Cos you've resorted to the cutting as your means for coping with anything. Even the small things, cos you know it takes the pain anyway, even if only temporality.

[xlovexkurtx]

Thanks guys, it's nice to know other people understand what I'm going through. @kitty- omg! Another obsessive kurt fan! Yay!

[georgiamay]

you feel like you cant stop because cutting is addictive, and soon enough you´re using it to cope with anything, and it becomes a coping mechanism.
But you can stop, you just feel like you can´t.
I went through the same thing, and now i´ve been cut free for almost 60 days.
It´s hard, yeah. I won´t lie, it will be hard when you try to stop, but it´s worth it.
I regret every single cut i ever made, and i´m glad i stopped.
You will be too. If you throw away whatever it is you use to cut, and find a distraction from the urges that make you want to cut, you could get through this.
Find something that releases the emotional distress, and use it whenever you feel like cutting.
Just remember that you dont need to cut, you just think you do, and that you can live without cutting very easily.

PM me if you ever need to talk about anything :hug: