I couldn't :(

[misery_business]

I couldn't do it, i cut today I don't know whats wrong with me :( anything can hurt me even the most stupid little comment.
i don't know what to do, i have about 15 cuts on my leg about 3 of them are still bleeding just a little bit... I don't know what to do

I 've cried for like an hour now it's 11pm i can't sleep cause i just want to keep cutting until i just can't move and finally be free I don't care if it's even for one minute.
I don't know who to trust all I know is I want chloe with me right now, im so lost I can't seem to calm down, i need to do it... im trying so hard to resist but why does it have to be so hard!!!?!!!! I want to scream and cry! I don't know what to do, im so scared of my self right now, i know what i can do to my self and i keep thinking about it, i can't get it out of my head !!!

[1_21Guns]

first things first hun, breathe. just close your eyes and breathe.
you can do it hun, you just need to keep trying.
don't cause more harm to yourself now, it's just more to regret later, because you might not care now, but i'm damn sure you will in a few days/years.
Crying is good, theres nothing wrong with it.
but please hun, put the blade down, stop it.
it's not freeing you, it's trapping you further into the illusion that it's making it better.
you got so far hun, and you can get that far again.
you never need to do it, and by no means is it ever worth it.
it'll be worth it in the end hun, i promise.
scream and cry, it's better than being bound by that blade.
your better than that, so much better.
:hug: stay strong hun, if you need me, you know where i am :heart:

[Mike321]

Just take a few deep breaths and calm yourself down
You dont want to hurt yourself anymore than you have done, as Nat said, crying is good, just your emotions out, its harmless.
Cutting cant free you, just pulls you deeper into the addiction, you did really well not cutting for so long, we all have relapses.
I know its not easy, but try and get back in control, you have all of us here for support if you need it
I hope your okay
PM me anytime

[georgiamay]

hun, its ok to cry, dont be ashamed of it, cry as much as you can, it gets the emotions out.
You know that cutting won´t make things any better.
It might feel better for a minute or so, but that feeling soon goes, and is replaced by regret and shame. It won´t seem worth it afterwards.
It might seem like you need it now, but really, its the last thing you need, it will just make you withdraw from your friends and family. It might make you feel like everything is getting better, but it won´t be getting any better at all if you keep cutting.
You went so long without it, and there´s nothing stopping you going that far again, or even further.
I know you can do it.
Everyone here is willing to support you, so dont be afraid to ask for help.

PM me if you ever need to talk hun, i´m always here for you :hug: