Ugly.

[REGRET]

I am at my breaking point right now.
When I look in the mirror I see "ugly" and nothing but the ugly. I wanna cut it all away.
I don't know what I should do to distract myself, it's all I think about now. I can't focus on anything else.

I dunno why I'm posting this, needed to get this of my ass.

[Aspiringanonymous]

:hug3: I hope you haven't done anything yet.

I know what it feels like to be overwhelmed completely by a single thought - at that point, it can be very difficult to regain control. If you can, in the days ahead, be aware of the circumstances in which you are most susceptible to the power of these destructive thoughts, and try to avoid them. Cutting won't make it all go away, perhaps temporarily but it will come back, and each time its power over your mind will grow stronger. I'm sure you know this.

Take advantage of every moment of clarity to be open to new things. Rather than being indoors and cut off from the world, why not go out for a walk? If there are opportunities to break from your regular routine, even if it's something small, take them - one never knows what one might encounter unexpectedly. A good choice of music can go a long way as well. Just remember, the more isolated you are - physically, but especially mentally - the more difficult it will be to maintain self-control.

And, even if you can't see it now, I want to say that you are beautiful. All life is beautiful; is miraculous, if we really think about it. Those who say otherwise are closed-minded, and they are missing out.

Take care of yourself. :hug3:

[REGRET]

Thank you, that made me feel alot better. :hug3:

I guess I can't help the way I look but right now it feels terrible.
And i'm sorry, I already cut my hip, guess I'm back to square one.

[misery_business]

well we all relapse at some point but keep trying, you can do it! I beleive in you :hug:

[Azunite]

There are very beautiful and less beautiful girls, enough said .)

[REGRET]

There are very beautiful and less beautiful girls, enough said .)
What's that supposed to mean?

[Carly011]

I know what you mean :/ every time i look in the mirror i just see flaws and ugliness. I see some ugly fat girl. Even though i KNOW i am not fat(i am actually underweight) i still FEEL fat. I feel like i need to loose weight. Ideally i would like to be down in the low 80s from my current 92lbs(im 5ft 1). I know this is unhealthy.

This all makes me want to cut more :/ I feel like i deserve the cuts as a reminder of how ugly i am. :( I hope you can resist the urge to cut, i have gone a week with no cutting but the urge is getting harder and harder to resist... i dont know if i can do it.

Maybe try to watch a movie, come here of course, read a book? those are some of the things i am doing to try and keep myself from going and getting my blade...

[Skeptical Bear]

What's that supposed to mean?

I'm guessing that all girls are beautiful, just some are less beautiful than the other. That's a good thing if it sounds like an insult. But, I'm sure you're not ugly. I met my fair share of girls in school and those that say they're ugly, are actually really pretty if you really look into them. You don't need to go out with someone to think you're pretty. That doesn't prove anything. Don't let that put you down.

[ImCoolBeans]

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