Fuck, my mom saw my scars.

[REGRET]

When me and my mom were sitting next to each other a few days ago she suddenly said "What's this?" and stroked my arm, right were my scars are( I wore a quarter sleeve shirt). I just felt a shiver go through my body, because I knew that I had to lite to her now. I just said that the cat got mad because we have a really agressive cat and then everyone started talking about that so I was saved.
But it just felt so horrible because I hate when I have to lie to my mom. She looken really dissapointed when she saw them and I know that she didn't believe me about the cat.

Sorry for taking up space with my rant, I just wanted to share because it was such a horrible feeling to me.

[ackmedsgirl666]

well if u don't mind i have something to say. telling your parents is always hard to do
eventually they found out about mine because they saw the big one i had carved into my calf
its your choice if u want to keep it a secret but i thik that you should really tell her because what if say for instance your cat did scratch you and she didn't believe you
in my opinion i think that u shud tell her so she can continue to trust you
just my opinion

[enjoying_my_insanity]

i had to lie about a cut once too...i said i cut myself on the dock at a swim meet accidently....my parents still dont know the truth :( i hope you can tell your parents and get help...im a bad example i cant :(

[REGRET]

well if u don't mind i have something to say. telling your parents is always hard to do
eventually they found out about mine because they saw the big one i had carved into my calf
its your choice if u want to keep it a secret but i thik that you should really tell her because what if say for instance your cat did scratch you and she didn't believe you
in my opinion i think that u shud tell her so she can continue to trust you
just my opinion

I am not ready to tell her, I'm not ready to tell anybody.
I know that she would not believe that I feel bad. She would get so mad and I can't take her being mad at me for a long time.
It feels like all I do is whine., sorry.

[celine93]

The first time I ever cut I was inly 13 and pretty inexperienced at hiding them- my mum found out and saw. It was pretty clear what it was, and there was no getting out of it.
She was devastated. It killed her to know that I wanted to die- the problem was that I didn't want to die at all, but because she didn't SH she didn't know that.
At the time my mum and I were going through a rough patch, and while it was awkward and painful at first I was able to teach her a lot about how I was feeling and why I did what I did.
People who don't self harm don't understand. They could never 'get' what we get out of it- especially if on the surface it looks like there's nothing wrong with your life, but this will give you an oppourtunity to bond with your mum. Help her understand how you're feeling and how your mind works. Help persuade her that it's not her fault, and not to do with the way she brought you up, but something else.
Coming clean to my mum pushed me to stop SH. I didn't do it for a year, until things got pretty bad.
During this time my mum would constantly ask to look at my arms and my wrists. It was something I wasn't comfortable with, but I felt close to her, like she had finally accepted my scars and what I had done- who I was. It felt like it was something we had overcome together, and it made us stronger and we shared a stronger relationship.
However, I am also back at square one, and am once again feeling the shame and fear I felt the first time round, when I wanted to tell her but didn't know how.
It's never an easy thing to do- but it will always work the situation into a better one in the long run, by being honest and open with ther people you love and care about.
Ii would seriously think it over. There are a lot of different ways you could talk to your mum about this, and if you find one that you feel comfortable with I say you should go for it.

It would be the final push you need to help you stop altogether- and I think your mum would respect you more for being honest and adult about it.

Just think it over.
Take care,
Kate

[georgiamay]

I was quite lucky, i didn't have to tell my parents. The school told them when they found out. In some ways this was good, because it meaant i didn't have to tell them, but all the same, it has it's negatives as well. Now if my dad see's the tiniest little scratch that honestly was an accident, he doesn't believe me when i tell him, because i didn't tell him about my self harm.
If you tell your mum that you did it to yourself, it will give a reason to stop, because you know that she'll be looking for new ones, and it'll give you a reason to stop. You might think that you're not ready to stop, but the thing is that no one isn't ready. That's the addiction talking. No one actually needs to cut, so if you tell her, maybe you might be able to beat this.

VM me if you ever need to talk, i'm always here.
good luck :)

[REGRET]

Thanks for giving me some opinions guys. I'm gonna think it over, got a lot to think about now.
Maybe I'll go to the counselor at my school or something.

[xlovexkurtx]

I have to lie about scars all the time. Instead of a cat, I always say my dog did it. People must think I have this crazy homicidal dog or something. I haven't told my parents yet, and I really don't plan on it. If you're not ready, telling your mom just because she saw your scars might just make everything worse.

[huginnmuninn]

my mom found out about mine because there were a lot of cuts and we dont have a cat i still cut but im more discreet about it but i kinda feel better about it because i dont feel like im lying to her as much