guacamole24
August 3rd, 2010, 01:50 PM
I have been very privately dealing with what I think is OCD for probably the last two or three years. I have so many weird habits that I do, such as walking up and down the stairs, starting and ending with the same foot, I fold my clothes for each day into little piles, I line up coins in rows, typing only with my pinky, and a billion other things. I feel like if I don't do these things, something will go terribly wrong. And I've somehow intertwined them with my spiritual relations.
I have never been very religious at all, but I pray every night, and I feel like I have a very personal relationship with God. My parents don't know that I pray at all, and I keep it that way. I always keep it very private, as well as my OCD habits, because I feel like they are private, nobody else's business, and something will go wrong if they find out.
I don't think I feel very comfortable talking about this at all, especially not with my parents, and I don't know who I can talk to. I would say that I would like to talk to a therapist, which I really would, but when my mom says that therapists have to report everything to the parents for underage patients (I'm fourteen). The reason I think therapy would be the most comfortable situation is because it would be a person that I don't know personally, like my mom.
Last summer, when I was imagining that I had a bunch of illness and health problems, I talked to my mom about it all. Eventually, she started getting worried about all the problems I was having, which is what I don't need. Having a personal relationship without the person. Plus, it seemed like she started getting annoyed that I thought everything was wrong with me. So I tend to keep a lot more to myself. And I don't talk about issues with my dad... he's not as sensitive or understanding as my mom, really.
On the other hand, I'm starting high school next week, where we'll finally have a guidance counselor... is that something I should look into or not? Do they contact your parents as well about your issues?
Please give me some advice about this. I really don't know what to do about my OCD and everything else I mentioned. Along with the constant worrying (possibly anxiety), gayness, mom issues, and a bunch of other stuff, it's really taking it's toll on me. Thank you.
I have never been very religious at all, but I pray every night, and I feel like I have a very personal relationship with God. My parents don't know that I pray at all, and I keep it that way. I always keep it very private, as well as my OCD habits, because I feel like they are private, nobody else's business, and something will go wrong if they find out.
I don't think I feel very comfortable talking about this at all, especially not with my parents, and I don't know who I can talk to. I would say that I would like to talk to a therapist, which I really would, but when my mom says that therapists have to report everything to the parents for underage patients (I'm fourteen). The reason I think therapy would be the most comfortable situation is because it would be a person that I don't know personally, like my mom.
Last summer, when I was imagining that I had a bunch of illness and health problems, I talked to my mom about it all. Eventually, she started getting worried about all the problems I was having, which is what I don't need. Having a personal relationship without the person. Plus, it seemed like she started getting annoyed that I thought everything was wrong with me. So I tend to keep a lot more to myself. And I don't talk about issues with my dad... he's not as sensitive or understanding as my mom, really.
On the other hand, I'm starting high school next week, where we'll finally have a guidance counselor... is that something I should look into or not? Do they contact your parents as well about your issues?
Please give me some advice about this. I really don't know what to do about my OCD and everything else I mentioned. Along with the constant worrying (possibly anxiety), gayness, mom issues, and a bunch of other stuff, it's really taking it's toll on me. Thank you.