Am i crazy

[wowfan]

The way i feel about cutting has changed recently, i have so many cuts and marks on my arm and i felt bad at first when i looked at them, now though, when i look at my arms and see all the marks i feel safe, its like things will be ok because i have those marks, im terrified someone else sees them though cause they would not understand.
if i think about not cutting myself and having marks it feels like i wont be able to cope with anything else, is this totaly nuts? does it make sense at all.
i admit when i started cuttting i thought it was exciting and id just do it a few times, but now, i dont know its changed so much ...

[enjoying_my_insanity]

well you might feel safe cuz you think that no one can hurt you as much as you hurt yourself...do you still want to cut or SH in any other way? or is this just about your scars?

[Fiending_the_freedom]

You're not crazy, I felt a lot of different things about cutting as I went through it and I definitely went through this.
You can get through it, you just need to stay strong and try to think of your scars as a reminder of how strong you already are, how much you can get through.

[georgiamay]

i know exactly how you feel, don't worry you're not crazy. They make me feel like no one can hurt me as much as i can hurt myself.

To me, it sounds like it's become an addiction for you. You started just thinking you could do a few, but now you use it to cope, right? Just think that you don't need the scars to feel safe, because you don't. Keep telling yourself that you don't need it, and that you're strong enough to beat this, because you are.

[Stifan March]

I guess that is pretty weird but its probable just a coincidence. I wouldn't worry if I were you, maybe something good will happen when your 24.