Resinflux
August 2nd, 2010, 12:42 PM
So it starts off, I met a new friend (something that rarely happens) an I don't do much at home but sit on my ass so I spend a lot of my time at her house even when she isn't there I hang out with her dad an step mom...her dad is my manager at work an her step mom I help out with the house since she has three kids...I spend maybe two-three days at home a week since I've been coming down here...
My mom however has been saying shit like her kid smells like piss (her two year old is still in diapers) an talking bout how dirty the house is then accuses me of screwing her...mind you im gay, then I get accused of screwing my managers daughter...she said she had to ask because she doesn't believe im gay because i don't bring boys around or talk about anyone...can you see why though? So I finally snapped an told her it's good to see while I had her back she was stabbing me in mine..an it started a war...
She talkin bout how she can't get to know me or anything becaue im never home but when I am home she just vents to me or talks to me or whatever for five minutes then its done with she doesnt make plans to take me anywhere save money for us to do stuff...
Now she after I get off work tonight she supposed to pick me up an I don't know whats going to happen from there..she wants me to stop going down to my friends..I feel like all the fight I have is gone an she's to stubborn to see it how I see it..all her excuses is that im never home, she gives me no reason to be home
I had a 32" lcd tv i used as a computer monitor she says she didn't give me so thats why she took it back..I had surround sound system she took an says she thought i wouldnt mind since im not home..I just don't know if this fight is worth it or if im just being stupid but im at the end of my sanity an the road ahead is too obscure for me to see..
Debating running away, suicide, all of my options out on the table an I have no clue what to pick, can't cry anymore my tears are dry :( hopfully an outside source/s will shed some light on this because im just in the dark
My mom however has been saying shit like her kid smells like piss (her two year old is still in diapers) an talking bout how dirty the house is then accuses me of screwing her...mind you im gay, then I get accused of screwing my managers daughter...she said she had to ask because she doesn't believe im gay because i don't bring boys around or talk about anyone...can you see why though? So I finally snapped an told her it's good to see while I had her back she was stabbing me in mine..an it started a war...
She talkin bout how she can't get to know me or anything becaue im never home but when I am home she just vents to me or talks to me or whatever for five minutes then its done with she doesnt make plans to take me anywhere save money for us to do stuff...
Now she after I get off work tonight she supposed to pick me up an I don't know whats going to happen from there..she wants me to stop going down to my friends..I feel like all the fight I have is gone an she's to stubborn to see it how I see it..all her excuses is that im never home, she gives me no reason to be home
I had a 32" lcd tv i used as a computer monitor she says she didn't give me so thats why she took it back..I had surround sound system she took an says she thought i wouldnt mind since im not home..I just don't know if this fight is worth it or if im just being stupid but im at the end of my sanity an the road ahead is too obscure for me to see..
Debating running away, suicide, all of my options out on the table an I have no clue what to pick, can't cry anymore my tears are dry :( hopfully an outside source/s will shed some light on this because im just in the dark