Tempting Relapse, Tempting Suicide.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Memories haunting me, depression bringing me to my kness. The pain to much to bare. Intense urges driving me insane. It torments me every where I go. My whole life is a giant trigger. I just found out my aunt had looked threw my art book and fucking photo copied it! My private and most personal possession. She raped me of comfort. The one thing no one could take from me, she took. Ive tired to stop cutting & burning, But one thing after another keeps tempting me. Suicides on my mind. I just want everything to end. Im sorry, I dont know why im posting this but it seems like every time I try I just get knocked down. But what are you supposed to do when your whole life is miserably agonizing?

[Rutherford The Brave]

Memories haunting me, depression bringing me to my kness. The pain to much to bare. Intense urges driving me insane. It torments me every where I go. My whole life is a giant trigger. I just found out my aunt had looked threw my art book and fucking photo copied it! My private and most personal possession. She raped me of comfort. The one thing no one could take from me, she took. Ive tired to stop cutting & burning, But one thing after another keeps tempting me. Suicides on my mind. I just want everything to end. Im sorry, I dont know why im posting this but it seems like every time I try I just get knocked down. But what are you supposed to do when your whole life is miserably agonizing?

Make it better, Instead of sitting around crying and wondering when it will get better. You don't like that your aunt touches your stuff tell her not to. You want to have fun, then go out and have some fun. But don't sit in your house and say life is miserable if your not actively trying to make it better.

[Babobobo]

It's not just you, everybody has this. Life isn't going to hand you happiness on a silver platter, try to go out and find it.

[georgiamay]

hun, i know exactly how you feel, but the thing to remember is that suicide is never the answer. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem, or a problem that could be fixed or dealt with. What ever the problem is, is it really worth throwing away all your hard work and having a relapse?
As for your aunt, why did she do that? was there a reason?
And to answer your question, when life gets miserably agonising, you keep going. Giving in is like letting life win, just keep fighting, and you'll make it through this. We all fall sometimes, and when we do, all we can do is pick ourselves back up again.

You can VM/PM me if you ever need to talk.

[Mike321]

What Georgia said is pretty much spot on, it is a permanent solution to something that can be solved.
I've been there a few times (tried to comit suicide), it really makes you think, is it really worth it, and its not. It effects more people than you think. you have to keep fighting and never give in to it, its really not worth it. As for the cutting, dont throw it away now, you've done really well.
Do you know why your aunt did that?
Don't give up and keep fightting, although it may seem like a long way off, but this will get better
PM me any time

[Stifan March]

I think the first poster should have said to stay away from *active* alcoholics. A recovering alcoholic (or any addictive person for that matter) needs to refrain from the
People, Places, and Things that may cause a relapse.

And it may cause some grief, but if sobriety is your priority, there will be people that you may have to leave behind. Your sobriety will become the focus your life.