Step forward

[celine93]

I haven't cut in 2 days, which might not seem like a long time, but I'm feeling positive about it.
Also, I spoke to my GP on friday and have an appointment to see her tomorrow.
I'm scared, but again, I feel positive.
I could really be making progress and I'm happy and pleased with the fact that I've found this confidence.
I'm just taking in one day at a time, but I am starting to feel hopeful.
Let's hope I don't have so many relapses this time- they are no good for a person's morale and hope.

Kate

[enjoying_my_insanity]

good! i hope your GP can help you! best of luck :)

[Mike321]

Well done kate, thats really good, i'm pleased for you
And dont be scared, she is there to help you, and its good that your feeling postive about it, its the right attitude to have.
As you said just take it one day at a time, but youe doing really well :)
Good luck, feel free to PM me anytime

[georgiamay]

well done! that's a great step forward, it will really help, and well done for what you've done already :)

can i just ask, when you saw your GP, how was it? how old are you? cause i have an appointment to see my GP tomorrow, and i really don't want my parents to know. I can't decide whether to go or cancel it. Did she tell your parents? sorry, i know it's off topic a little, i just really wanna know :/

but anyways, well done :D PM me if you ever need to talk, i'm always here :)

[Fiction]

Well done! Feeling posotive about it i've found is the best cure (if that makes sense :P). if you think you cna do it your much more likley to succeed :) And well done for not cutting for 2 days, i know that can be alot, it used to be for me. You just need to keep going :)

[welcome_to_chaos]

:) good job. im in the same boat too. hope all goes well

[celine93]

Hey guys,
@GeorgiaMay- sorry for not replying- I hope everything went okay, and you kept your appointment.
Just to answer your Q's, I'm 17, I never told my parents anything- but the clear way to make sure it'll be confidential is just to ask- that's what I did.

Also, sorry to disappoint everyone- and myself- but I relapsed and cut at about 1.30 this morning. I'm disappointed, but I just had to. :/
On the doctors front- well she was very nice about it, she's putting me on prozac and she's getting me an appointment with the councillor, because I can't see mine outside of college time.
She asked to look at my SH. The single most strangest experience ever. No one else has ever seen.
When I showed her the first thing she said was 'aww, darling- that's not pretty' which wasn't the best thing she could say to someone with no self confidence- I'll admit.
She touched it.
And I know that sounds weird but I mean, she was there for a good 30 seconds just holding my wrists and arms£
She asked me if my mum had seen it, so I told her no. And then just to top it off she said ' oh, it'd break a mother's heart to see that.' That just made me feel terrible.
I have an appointment to see her again next monday.
I feel sorta exposed and the whole session was really degrading. But she made me feel like I did have a reason to be there, which was my biggest fear- that she'd just be like 'you have no problems, stop attention seeking'.
It wasn't so bad that I'm not going again on monday- just to encourage anyone who's thinking about talking a step.
I feel like I'm on my way to been fixed- even if it's just by showing someon else. That in itself was a massive step for me.

Thank you, for all of your support

Kate

[Mike321]

Well done for sticking to it and going to the doctor, thats really good.
I know its never any easy thing showing someone something you've kept secret for a long time.
Don't take it to heart what she said when she saw them, people react differently to seeing them. The main thing is she's there to help you and your parents dont need to know about it.
And dont beat yourself up over relapsing, we've all done it.
But i'm glad your getting help and feeling more postive about it, you are on your way to getting 'fixed'.
Good Luck
PM me anytime, if you want to talk

[Stifan March]

These people are only too anxious to build humongous useless computer systems that are very costly to maintain and have little or no practical use.
The problem is that there is no up front control to ensure that a system is really needed BEFORE the gurus start working on it.