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[Gumleaf]

those thoughts have been at me again. i feel so alone, like i have no purpose. i can't tell anyone, i have to hide it. that's something i m good at. i can't talk to anyone at all right now unless i have something else to hide behind. confidence is low and self esteem is lower. i feel like i'm trapped between 2 brick walls. every step forward results in a step back. everyone around can beat their problems, why can't i? i'm feeling lost and isloated and on a road to nowhere. *sighs* ok, i've said what i feel now. i can go back and hide.

[Bougainvillea]

Stephen, I've said this to someone before, but I'll say it again, because you're my friend.
When you're staring straight ahead, and you see nothing but a brick wall in your path. You put one leg back, put your head down, and run forward. With every morsel of strength you have. And don't look around, don't flinch, don't think. Because you've got to get through that wall. Remember. No matter how long that road seems, there is ALWAYS something at the end of it.

You do have a purpose. Everyone does. It's what gives us the will to live. My purpose is to help those in need. And I love doing it. I'm absolutely positive you will find yours. You've got a long life ahead of you.

You should try talking to someone. I'm sure there's someone willing to listen to you.

[Scarface]

Depression is a hard thing to handle and quite the task to try and overcome, but you can too. Just because there are a lot of things in this life that are very discouraging and can set you back never let it own you. You don't have to let this depression sink you in and take over. I remember feeling that way. Isolation, away from everyone and justt o be left alone to my own feelings and pain.

Never wanting to open up to anyone because I thought I didn't deserve to be helped. Everyone including you deserve to be happy and be proud of yourself most of all because I thought I didn't and now I'm here and I can tell you that I'm finally happy. There is always that light of the tunnel you just have to open yourself even though it's going to seem hard, but a lot of things in life are going to be hard, but we face them and accomplish them.

Maybe you could talk to a therapist and maybe open up a little bit, even if that means a little bit at a time or even getting a journal so you don't have to talk to anyone, but letting your feelings out and keeping you mind occupied that way your thoughts aren't so cluttered. You don't have to sink into the abyss of your thoughts you always have people to turn to and talk to. you're never a burden I'm always here if you ever need to talk. I hope things get better for you, I believe in you.