I'm obsessed DX

[starrburst]

Everything i think about involves SHing, mostly cutting. Every story i read, every show i watch something always reminds me of it. I can't live without cutting, but i can't handle the scars...I can't wear what i want unless i act differently, being carefull to not turn to much, which hand to use etc. It's eating my life away. I just want to die, i deserve to die. I have plently of razors over there, maybe i will end my life. I don't know though,deep down i want to stop cutting, but i don't...I can't...I get asked to stop by my friends, they're trying to help...I just tell them I'm sorry, and that i can't...I hate my life.

[delta]

Everything i think about involves SHing, mostly cutting. Every story i read, every show i watch something always reminds me of it.I have it that way too. I try to just ignore it, even though it's hard at times.I can't live without cutting, but i can't handle the scars...I can't wear what i want unless i act differently, being carefull to not turn to much, which hand to use etc. It's eating my life away.You can, if the reasons against SH are stronger than the reasons for. And they are, you just have to acknowledge it.I just want to die, i deserve to die. I have plently of razors over there, maybe i will end my life.Don't. You deserve to live.I don't know though,deep down i want to stop cutting, but i don't...I can't...I get asked to stop by my friends, they're trying to help...I just tell them I'm sorry, and that i can't...I hate my life.As I said, you can. You want to stop cutting, your friends are trying to help, that's all you need. You can do it!

[Babobobo]

Why would god put you on this earth if you deserved to die? No one deserves to die, understand that.

Your friends and family all really care about you, that's why they try to get you to stop. Could you imagine what would happen to THEM after you killed yourself? They would be in horrible grief, possibly even depression. You have to think about others. And don't think they don't care whether you weren't alive or not, they wouldn't be asking you to stop if they thought otherwise.

By putting yourself at risk, you are putting tons of other people's feelings at risk. It would be a horrible chain reaction. You ARE useful to this earth, you're still young so it's hard to discover your meaning. Everybody was put on this earth for a reason. Push the razor blades away and experience life's journey that's in store for you.

[starrburst]

No...i really can't...:[
Uh...i don't wanna talk about it anymore, sorry :\