My medicine is really screwing with me

[Navi]

Long story: Before I forget, this is the medicine: I am taking Topamax, 50mg. Once daily.
The medicine supposedly acts for two things, weight and migraines. I was mainly prescribed it for migranes, but I do have some weight issues. I started it in March this year. Main story begins here:
In January, a friend of mine commited suicide.
Right after I started my medicine, was my State's testing. (I guess like the SAT or something, called the FCAT, real big test) After I finished, I was hearing music that no one else heard, so we called the doctor. He said to call the psych doc, but mom never did.
After that, I became really nervous around crowds of people, and had to withdraw from school. (my grades sucked)
I am in an online school which I have no motivation of doing, because it's just sit in front of a computer.
More side affects are also in.
If I forget to take it, I get mood issues to say the least.
I don't really trust medical staff and medicines they prescribe.
I guess you could say suicidal thoughts have passed through quite a bit.
Mom wants me back in public school, and have to repeat the grade, but I don't because of the issues. We have an appointment with the neurologist in mid August, but I'm pretty sure he'd like to know now. Mom gets mad at me when I don't take it, and I don't tell her why I'm not taking it.
I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense, but It's around 5am now and I am a little tired.
Thanks for the help.

[Scarface]

Well first of all medicines can be very complicated and can come with a lot of nasty side effects. I would strongly suggest that you tell your mother that you really don't like taking the pills because you don't feel right on them and they give you irregular feelings. It sounds like you sure have been through a lot. I remember having to take the FCAT it's a very irritating state exam and is quite stressful. Even though online school can be very distracting as the world of the internet is at your finger tips you have to look at your future. You have a bright one. Then when you go to your doctor tell him/her about the feelings that you have had because it sounds to me like some depression. Remember suicide never solves any problems as you have seen by your friends actions unfortunately. I really hope that things get better for you. If you ever need someone to talk to I'm always here VM me anytime.

[Navi]

I have tried telling her that the medicine isn't helping, and she doesn't seem to listen.
There are really no trustworthy family I could tell. (I could go on for hours explaining why)
Thanks for the encouraging thoughts, I wish everyone could be as friendly as you guys.

[Sordid Saint]

Maybe you should try taking smaller amounts of it and see if that helps with any of the side effects. So maybe empty a little bit out of the pill case, or cut a little bit off if it's a tablet.

[Navi]

Maybe you should try taking smaller amounts of it and see if that helps with any of the side effects. So maybe empty a little bit out of the pill case, or cut a little bit off if it's a tablet.

The thing is, the side affects started when I just started (at 25 mg.) Sorry, I forgot about that. (memory isn't too good right now) But it seemed mom and the doctor decided to increase the dosage anyway. I know I could've said something. Hard to explain why I don't say much, don't know why.

[DanielBoy]

You need to tell her, and you need to tell the doctor to change your medication. None of those are reasonable side effects for what it is supposed to be fixing, and side effects are only okay when they are reasonable. There are allot of other medications out there that can help your migraines.

I hope I helped. :D

[Magus]

I have trouble with my skin, it is easily susceptible to bacteria, fungal and viral infections. The worst thing is, that most medicine(ointments/topical creams) contains cortisol.

And do you know what excess Cortisol do to my body? Ans: A lot of disorder due to chemical instability.

Yes, I know what you are going through.