Destroying my life...

[Hewhohasnoriches]

Masturbation is disrupting my life. What the heck would a Christian need to do with it?

Let me explain, I'm Christian, and I do believe that this act is a sin. Despite it all, I find myself doing it anyway, then feeling guilty about it the next day I wake up or something like that.

It's corrupted my perception on women. It's built new paranoia about accidentally impregnating my mom.

It's even had me vigorously question my own sexuality, because of the random thoughts that fall into my head as I do it.

Typically non-sexual thoughts of other men. It's this issue that's really twisted me up. I don't hate gays, but I can't help but become extremely tense when faced with the fact that I could be one.

I've forged fears of being homosexual towards many people; even the President... even Jesus just recently.

My mind has gotten so disgusting and the issue has gotten so out of hand now that honestly I'm not sure what to do.

The physical pleasure of masturbating is what has me coming back, but now it obviously doesn't seem to be worth it, now that I'm being threatened to have my religion messed up in my head.

This is crazy... after becoming scared that I might be gay for Jesus, it's gone much too far. This NEEDS to be stopped.

But it seems difficult to convince myself that I'm not gay for him, or anyone else whom my mind has dabbled about outside of the experience.

How can I go to him if the way I think towards him is so far out of line from how I'd like to think of him.

I'm sorry if I come across as homophobic, I just really needed to get these thoughts out. I don't know what to do.

[nick]

OK well I'm a Christian too, I masturbate as often as most other guys and dont consider it to be a sin, it gives me no feelings of guilt at all. If God designed us then he knew teenaged boys were going to be horny and gave us the necessary self relief mechanism. Jesus preached loved for all, wouldnt throw a stone at the woman caught in the act of adultery, and had as one of his closet companions a prostitute. You should consider his example and actions and place those above the stupid thoughts of church leaders and clerics most of whom fail miserably to live up to their own ideals.

Its not a sin, its just natural and essential to release unwanted sperm from your body. If you didnt masturbate you would get wet dreams and then you would experience exactly the same worries and concerns over the content of the dreams.

You are not going to accidentally impregnate anyone as a result of masturbation. Also what ever thoughts or fantasies you have in your mind when you are masturbating have little real affect upon your life or your sexuality, they are just fantasies. Its what you really want to do, and how you really feel emotionally about other people, that determines your sexuality.

You need to come to the terms with the fact that you are becoming a young adult, that there is a sexual side to your nature, and that your body has sexual needs. Accept it, embrace it, its the same for everyone.

Happy to talk if it might help.

[Hewhohasnoriches]

@Nick: I understand that my body is changing, and that I can't stop or change what is going on.

Thanks for the advice about my unwanted thoughts. However, I am not sure if you understand what I mean about those fantasies.

Unwanted thoughts, thoughts of people for whom I'd never be or wouldn't enjoy thinking sexually about, randomly appear out from the blue during my regular fantasies. I would try to forget about them, keep them off my mind, but they would continue to persist.

When I've finished, and if those flashes are still swarming in my head, that's when I'd be hit with the stigma; the stigma of false attraction. And even though I know what truly happened during that experience, I find that I'm so convinced of having an attraction to Obama, some of my friends, even Jesus (yep, :/) that it proves to be very difficult to think any other way about the circumstance.

Sometimes, I even try to "test" myself, which doesn't go down well with me.

[nick]

Well the thoughts and fantasies are very much affected by the raging hormones that will be going on for you, that should calm down in a while.

[XpopularX]

U were made the way u were for a reason. Im not going to give u bull but u need to slow down and think deep. Put all the questions together and answer them.





I love to talk.help, and listen PM me anytime.

[guacamole24]

Situations like this I doubt are too uncommon. The thing about masturbation is that it is very addictive. Once masturbation is started, it's really pretty difficult to stop. The reason I believe all these strange scenarios are coming to your mind is because of the guilt caused by you fearing betrayal of your religion all because of your masturbation. The best thing you can do in this situation is to try to realize that all these things are mind trickery triggered by guilt (such as your false Obama and/or Jesus attractions, fear of impregnating your mom). The second thing is to try to focus on other things instead of masturbation if possible. Also, since you seem to be very religious, you should try to seek help in your religion, maybe?

[Azunite]

Well I dont know anything about masturbation in Islam, but why it would be a sin ?