felling the need to purge

[Asylum]

it's a daily routine wake up weigh myself eat a little somethign weigh myself... these past two days after i ate dinner i felt the sensation to purge agian... i fetl fat.. i look into the mirror all i see if fat.. i feel disgusting. i just want there to be less and less of me as possible.. i hate me.. i cna't stand the way i look. arghhh!!! i don't want to start throwig up again.. and yet i do.. i don't want to start limiting what i'm eating. but i am.. i'm letting myself fall back.. and i'm falling fast... i just.. how do i get rid of the urges to purge? what is causing them? i used to make myself throw up awhile back.. it was only for a short period of tim until my mother caught me.. so i had to stop.. now and then i grt into these cycles where i feel so fat i do throw up.. it's occasionally.. it's ont a lot.. sometimes i even can't trhwo up but i try.. i odn't know whats wrong with me.. help :(

[myskias]

listen sweety, why do you think you are ugly.. why do you think you are fat?! honestly everyone is beautiful the way they are and you should not feel like you have to purge yourself of anything. whenever you throw up.. you are throwing away some good in you too not only the "fat" that you think you are losing.

How about instead of purging you just work out or something to burn off the calories? Your confidence in yourself is low because you feel like you are ugly. but you are not! everyone is perfect the way they are, as long as you are healthy and strong! and purging does not help you become healthy or strong!

Please PM me if you need anything! il be here always!