reithedragonboy
July 22nd, 2010, 03:48 AM
Hello everybody. I just wanted to say that I've finally discovered who I am today. After thinking about it for a few years and finding ways to backtalk my way out of it, I finally came to a decision. I...am gay.
It feels kind of weird to be associating myself as a gay now, but I guess that's how it feels with everybody who makes some kind of revelation with their sexual orientation. I just suddenly accepted the feelings that I had been trying to backtalk my way out of.
When I normally start to lean towards gay, I always have the urge to mentally throw myself away from there. Tonight, though, I don't feel that feeling. It's just a smooth ride from here.
I guess the fact that I tried talking to a couple of gay guys my age helped with my decision. Every time I talk to them, I start to feel that pleasant yet unexplainable rush. I guess the talking with others while I was questioning helped me to figure out where I stand.
Before I came to this conclusion, I never really considered receiving anal from a guy whenever I had to cross that bridge. Now that I've accepted who I am, I kind of want to try it out a bit. It's amazing how a simple revelation can change your outlook on certain things, huh?
Anyway, I just wanted to share my newfound revelation with everybody. I finally don't feel that stupid nagging feeling that keeps bugging the hell out of me.
It feels kind of weird to be associating myself as a gay now, but I guess that's how it feels with everybody who makes some kind of revelation with their sexual orientation. I just suddenly accepted the feelings that I had been trying to backtalk my way out of.
When I normally start to lean towards gay, I always have the urge to mentally throw myself away from there. Tonight, though, I don't feel that feeling. It's just a smooth ride from here.
I guess the fact that I tried talking to a couple of gay guys my age helped with my decision. Every time I talk to them, I start to feel that pleasant yet unexplainable rush. I guess the talking with others while I was questioning helped me to figure out where I stand.
Before I came to this conclusion, I never really considered receiving anal from a guy whenever I had to cross that bridge. Now that I've accepted who I am, I kind of want to try it out a bit. It's amazing how a simple revelation can change your outlook on certain things, huh?
Anyway, I just wanted to share my newfound revelation with everybody. I finally don't feel that stupid nagging feeling that keeps bugging the hell out of me.