I hate myself. So much.

[screamtobeheard]

I really wish I wasn't to scared or selfish to kill myself. it kind of seems like all I am is a burden. I sprained my ankle and my parents have to take care of me now. But that's not it. My eating disorder is wearing on my best friend. And I hate that. I know I'm a bad person. I know I don't really deserve to be alive. But I can't bring myself to kill myself. And I'd love to say it's because I'm selfless and I don't want to hurt the few people who really do love me, but I think it's really because I'm selfish and scared. Honestly, I think I'm hurting them more by existing...

[Raptor22]

Its okay, we are here for you Amanda. I have felt the same as you many times too, but dont do anything irrational please. We love you Amanda, and we are glad that you exist and are alive. Your friends are glad that you exist and you are a positive contribution to this world. I can associate with how you feel on so many levels and there are many people on here who can too. We are here for you Amanda.

If you need anything, please dont hesitate to PM me.

[steve1234]

I seem to be in a similar situation to you. I'm feeling quite suicidal, but I can't bring my self to do it. It would be selfish and it would really hurt my family and some friends, but mostly Its because I would be scared of what would happen if I killed myself, like if it would be painful and if this whole heaven/hell thing really exists.

The only advice I can give is, just hold on. No matter how bad things are now, they can always get better in the future. You could look back in 10 years and be glad you never killed yourself. This sort of advice is keeping me from killing myself, so hopefully it will help you :) .

[screamtobeheard]

Thank you both so much. I know it's terrible of me, but it's actually nice to know that there are people who understand what this feels like, especially since I can't seem to sufficiently express it. I appreciate your advice so, so much.

[Raptor22]

Thank you both so much. I know it's terrible of me, but it's actually nice to know that there are people who understand what this feels like, especially since I can't seem to sufficiently express it. I appreciate your advice so, so much.

We are here for you, and glad to help. The least we can do is help people in similar situations to ones we have survived. :)

Its what VT is for. :)

[Kaya]

I know what its like to be too scared to go through with it...Youre not being selfish, either. PM me anytime. <3

[welcome_to_chaos]

even if u think your hurting them by living. think about how much ud hurt them if u accually did commit suicide

[DejaVu]

I feel the same way sometimes, but I can never bring myself to do it. At least YOU have friends and a good family, they'll be sad if you kill yourself.

[screamtobeheard]

That's true, I guess. Thanks, guys.

[Antares]

I really wish I wasn't to scared or selfish to kill myself. it kind of seems like all I am is a burden. I sprained my ankle and my parents have to take care of me now. But that's not it. My eating disorder is wearing on my best friend. And I hate that. I know I'm a bad person. I know I don't really deserve to be alive. But I can't bring myself to kill myself. And I'd love to say it's because I'm selfless and I don't want to hurt the few people who really do love me, but I think it's really because I'm selfish and scared. Honestly, I think I'm hurting them more by existing...

Don't focus so much on the small things.
You getting hurt on your ankle is out of your control. Completely out of your control and something that your parents, should be proud to assist you with. They are caregivers and are supposed to take care of you during a physical issue. Millions of people get hurt every year and probably hundreds of millions assist them. So don't worry about that.

Hopefully your eating disorder is som ething that you are working on...and if she knows that you are trying then she would feel much better and would feel motivated to help you. Sit down and tell her what you are going through and make sure she understands that you are trying to get better. However, that kind of thing can be stressful on a relationship and I see why you can be upset over that.

Overall, just take a deep breath and just calm down. Live your life out to the fullest and don't care so much about what others think about you, just do what is best for you. If you feel like you are hurting people, then maybe you should just ask them instead of assuming and then feeling bad about something that may not even exist.

Hopefully this helped, good luck!

[XpopularX]

let the storm pass by and you will be good.

[badboy77]

dont hate urself its not ur fault cuz of wht goes on around u wht the main thing is that ur family loves u & needs u bsides ur not selfless its jst ur being negative bout ur self u need to be positive ok.