UGH.

[Jennifer's Ashes]

Fasten your seatbelts, cause it's gonna be a bumpy ride...
Technically, I don't have an eating disorder. Nor do I plan to. (well I know it's not a choice, but oh you know what I mean.) I've seen those videos about the anorexic girls... How uncontrollable they are, even to themselves... So honestly it just does not appeal to me.

For a long time, ive known I need to eat better. But, on account of my skinny physique at that time, I never really considered it. I was always an incredibly picky eater, and my staple foods were pasta and ice cream. The pasta, of course, with no tomato sauce, just butter and salt. I hate to drink milk, never was a fan of veggies, and honestly don't know what to do.
Im told it's healthier to eat small snacks throughout the day and not save your hunger for big meals, but honestly im lost. I drink that rice milk stuff and protein shakes, and I'm trying to eat better... But to be honest I'm not disciplined enough to follow through with anything.

So anyway, I've noticed that my posture has become worse that usual (trust me, its been bad before, but never like this) My shoulders are kind of pushed back, and my stomach curves forward like in the letter S. I look pregnant. But I notice that when im looking in the mirror side on, my stomach is the same... I want to say depth, I suppose.. As the rest of me. I simply curve forward making me look, and feel, fatter than I am. The posture, i suppose, I can work on. (my uncles a chiropractor, aunts a physical therapist) But as you can imagine this doesn't help the way I see myself.

I've always been a skinny girl, like a beanpole, they say... And people (namely my parents) Generally tell me that little girls who eat the way I do wind up overweight. I never thought it would happen, but I'm beginning to see myself differently.opts wrong, I know, but I can't help it. I guess this is a confidence issue, but theres nothing I can do but take action...
So, any ideas? I'm mainly after any guidance I can get.

[myskias]

what you could do is try to go to your local nutritionist or someone who is in good shape and is healthy and help them work out a diet plan. and basically, i know its not fun, you need to force yourself to eat whenever that diet plan tells you do.

My mom is actually a nutritionist and she knows all of this. so i think your best bet is to create a healthy diet plan. (diet plan as in eating plan, not like a diet to lose weight). This will help you out so that you will stay healthy. also if you exercise along with this plan, you will see much better results. thats what any nutritionist would tell you. but i suggest you go try to find one for a good diet plan :)

[Jennifer's Ashes]

Well, thanks. That's what I've been doing, so fingers crossed! lol