I Want To Die.

[Saphire_Alexi]

I'm not trying to be an attention w*ore.
But all I've felt lately is despair, sadness, heartbreak.
I always feel lonely, no matter how many friends I have around me.
I want someone to love me, some guy to move to my town.
But what does daydreaming do?
I want to die.
Theres nothing here for me.
I dont love my family or friends.
No guys at school like me.
I dont have anything I want to do.
I used to want to make a rock band but I gave that up.
I never have fun anymore.
My parents think I'm making all this up, even though I went to the hospital for cutting.
They think I'm not serious.
They want to send me to a Buddhist boarding school thats strict, thinking I'll be happy there.
People at school make fun of me.
I have friends.
But I dont trust them.
Everyone has a faith to believe in except me.
I dont have a God or Goddess.
I want to believe to save myself, but...
I cant.

Any tips on how to be happy?

Dont give me any BS on finding happiness within myself. Ive tried. Hard.

Please help me out.

I want to disappear.

I want to die.

[MadManWithaBox]

Finding happiness is alot harder than people would make you believe. I don't think I've been truly happy in... 9 years or so? What can I tell you about is dying. With life, god only gives you once chance. Once its gone, its gone. And you feel like crap now. You wanna die. Believe me, I know the feeling so well, I've tried to kill myself more than once, still do. But you know what? I think, what could I do with my life? What could I achieve? What brilliant things could I see, that if I died, I'd never see? Why Should I surrender to all the cowards, idiots and liars? And why should you? You can save yourself, but not alone. You have me. You have me. You have people on here, all willing to help you. Daydreaming, gives you hope, and hope is such a rare and valuable commodity, you need hope. Hope keeps us going, hope keeps us alive. You say you don't have ambitions? Find some?You don't have friends? Gte some? Try. PM me if you need to. :yes:

[Saphire_Alexi]

Thanks for your post, I dont usually think about it that way...
But over everything, I still want to disappear...
When I daydream, it leads to wanting, then to needing things that are impossible.
Like changing who I am, what I look like...
No matter what, I know I cant find happiness without faith.
I dont have religion on my side...
And hope?
Is fading fast.
I feel like Im drowning in my sorrows if you will.

But thanks.
Happiness looks overrated anyways.

I do have ambitions, but they look so...impossible.

My ambition? Being a rockstar. Like thatll ever happen.

That careers too superficial to ever accept me.

[MadManWithaBox]

Nothing wrong with dreams. Nothing wrong with chasing an impossible dream, cos like I said, it gives you hope, and hope can make you get up on of those mornings when you feel like saying, fuck it, I'm gonna stay in bed forever. Yo disappear, you'll never get those dreams will you. There are plenty of things I wanna do that are never go happen. Author? Rich? Nah. I can still dream though.

[AutoPlay]

If killing ourselves is the hard way out?

then surely theres an easier way...

yes. yes there is. ive been there where you are now many a time before,
the only way out is hard work maybe a hobby or a job

something to take your mind off it. something to keep you going

if you need to talk....

[delta]

My ambition? Being a rockstar. Like thatll ever happen.Playing in a band is one of the reasons I am still alive, and it really cheers me up. We're not big and famous, we don't even have a name yet :whoops:, but it still makes me happy (and sad right now, because of a lack of rehearsal spaces :rolleyes:). What stops you from doing the same? It might turn out being a rock star is the purpose of your life!

[Saphire_Alexi]

But dreams are all that let me down. I daydream about big, shiny things, wishes, hopes, and they just lead me to see that my life isnt as great as them, and it hurts. As for being a rockstar, maybe it will happen, but i can barely carry a tune... for hobbies, i write song lyrics, but theyre all so depressing. i try to look up in life. and ive actually been happier this week than in a long time, just from hanging out with friends. but my parents always criticize me and my twin hurts me mentally. is there no escape?

[1_21Guns]

your young, you have a whole life ahead of you to make dreams come true, find happiness, and all the rest of it.
just because one dream seems to fall through, doesn't mean we should give up dreaming completely. because then what would we look forward to, or aspire to do?
your trying, and thats the best you can do.
you should never give up, no matter how much someone puts you down, because if your trying your best, that's all that matters.
things do get better hun, you just have to stick around to see them get better.
feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk.

[delta]

But dreams are all that let me down. I daydream about big, shiny things, wishes, hopes, and they just lead me to see that my life isnt as great as them, and it hurts.One step at a time.As for being a rockstar, maybe it will happen, but i can barely carry a tune...Do you play any instrument? Anyway, "barely" now might become "perfectly" after years of practice...and ive actually been happier this week than in a long time, just from hanging out with friends.Great!

Also, I don't have a religion either.

[Babobobo]

I was put down by my parents about being a model, actor, and playing the violin. They said SO many people on this earth want to be actors, what made me so special? But guess what, I outsmarted them and became what I wanted to be.

THE ONLY PERSON STOPPING YOU IS YOURSELF AND THAT'S NOT A DAMN LIE.

In your opinion what I'm about to say is bullshit but I'm saying it anyway hoping you'll swallow your pride and dig a little deeper. Happiness is there, you're not trying though. Suicidal thoughts will get you no where, and that's what's stopping you from doing what you want to do. Don't blame life, it gives you as many chances as you desire.