wooo 6 days :(

[Barelythere]

6 days, thats how long i resisteted, well 2 days, well 1, 4 days i didnt want to hurt myself anymore than i was, obv reasons, but last 2 days i couldnt help it, i tryed reli reli hard, but i gave in, bout to half an hr ago, i dont feel sad tho, i feel happyish for the 1st time in a while, omg im sick of everytelling me to smile, dont you get it i dont want to, what is there to smile about rite now? anyway, went a tad too deep but thats what happens when u stop and start, i tryed to distract my self but i guess doin art where i had to cut sme card with a craft knife wasnt the best idea, :( oh well whats done is done, god i miss this relief it give you, this is so nice, to be worry free for a lil bit, just having time to breath and nothing else, its nice, shame about how i achieved it i no, but hey, i cant b perfect, and im gunna stop trying, im only gunna me, im not sue who that is but ill look, this is the clear level headed harrie talking rite now, so anything i say will just b the relif talking, dnt worry ill go back to my self hate state soon enough :( cya xx

[Bobby]

Good Job, just remember we care.

[mRojas2000]

Please Harrie don't hate yourself!! You haven't done anything :(

[Barelythere]

no, but wrong has been done to me, and i let it happen, i hate my self for that.
def went a tad to deep had to butterfly it at lunch today, oh well, we had this councellor come into school today to teach us how to b supportive to the younger school, she was talking bout what we can help with and what we should invole an adult in, ppl were saying stuff like drugs, underage pregancy, then it went on to differnet types of abuse, i got reli edgy at this bit, but my mate was there so i was k, but then she moved onto people that self harm, someone said thats only sad emo's and goths, if they wanna kill them selves let them, everryone laughed, i was busy cheacking mine were covered tho, then we went on to how people do it for attention, and how sad and pathetic it was, that ppl resorted to that for attention, and that they should b locked up, i so wanted to stand up and say, stfu, all of you, you dont understand why people do it, there real reasons behind it so dont even try, well thats the clean non angry reply i wanted to say, anyways got to og, cya xxx

[mRojas2000]

no, but wrong has been done to me, and i let it happen, i hate my self for that.
def went a tad to deep had to butterfly it at lunch today, oh well, we had this councellor come into school today to teach us how to b supportive to the younger school, she was talking bout what we can help with and what we should invole an adult in, ppl were saying stuff like drugs, underage pregancy, then it went on to differnet types of abuse, i got reli edgy at this bit, but my mate was there so i was k, but then she moved onto people that self harm, someone said thats only sad emo's and goths, if they wanna kill them selves let them, everryone laughed, i was busy cheacking mine were covered tho, then we went on to how people do it for attention, and how sad and pathetic it was, that ppl resorted to that for attention, and that they should b locked up, i so wanted to stand up and say, stfu, all of you, you dont understand why people do it, there real reasons behind it so dont even try, well thats the clean non angry reply i wanted to say, anyways got to og, cya xxx

sorry to hear that hun :(
just be strong!! don't hate yourself, if you had to let yourself do something, you can't do anything now, that it has been done!! just leave it behing, and dont let it happen again!!

[Bobby]

I was referring to the fact that she didn't cut for 6 days.

[Barelythere]

dont let it happen again? do u mean the cutting orthe wrongs that have been done to me?, because obviously i want both to stop mre than anything in the world, and im working on it, but it easily goes over my head, and i cant help but drown in it, and diego i got u the 1st time :P i think i was the only one thank you or your support :) cya ppl xxx

[Barelythere]

im sorry, i only lasted 3 days this time, some peope just make me so mad at myself, ugh, anyways sorry ppl cya x

[kurlyopapa]

6 days, thats how long i resisteted, well 2 days, well 1, 4 days i didnt want to hurt myself anymore than i was, obv reasons, but last 2 days i couldnt help it, i tryed reli reli hard, but i gave in, bout to half an hr ago, i dont feel sad tho, i feel happyish for the 1st time in a while, omg im sick of everytelling me to smile, dont you get it i dont want to, what is there to smile about rite now? anyway, went a tad too deep but thats what happens when u stop and start, i tryed to distract my self but i guess doin art where i had to cut sme card with a craft knife wasnt the best idea, :( oh well whats done is done, god i miss this relief it give you, this is so nice, to be worry free for a lil bit, just having time to breath and nothing else, its nice, shame about how i achieved it i no, but hey, i cant b perfect, and im gunna stop trying, im only gunna me, im not sue who that is but ill look, this is the clear level headed harrie talking rite now, so anything i say will just b the relif talking, dnt worry ill go back to my self hate state soon enough :( cya xx
Remeber that god loves you and will always be there 4 u it took me a long time 2 figure that out b/c i hav a hard home life. just try to hang with ur friends more often just to get it off ur mind