well...

[georgiamay]

i haven't cut or burned since my parents found out, and its been 32 days, which is good, but now my dad keeps going on about group therapy with him, me and my mum, which i really dont want. the last time my parents got togther with me to talk about a sensitive topic, my mum ended up walking out and we didnt talk for weeks.

i dont want to do it. everytime me and my dad talk about anything i just start feeling even worse. at first i thought my parents knowing would make everything better, but really, they're not being a great help. they just dont get it.

i want to do this on my own. i want to councelling on my own, with no one else, just me and the councellor. that would help me so much more than with my parents there.

i just cant open up to them or infront of them at all. please, dont tell me i should, because i just dont seem to be able to, and believe me i have tried, with disastrous consequenses.

this is all getting a bit too much for me. i dont even know why. the cravings have just been coming on stronger and stronger, more frequently, and they're lasting longer. pretty soon i'm gunnu relapse, and i really dont want to. atleast, not before my holiday, cause then my parents will see them.

OMFG i forgot about the holiday!! my dad doesnt know about the huge scar on my leg, and i dont want him too, but he's gunnu see it!! oh shit, i didn't tell him about them so when he did his "inspections" i wouldn't have to take off my trousers... i think its partly because i quite like the secrecy of it all, i dont know, i'm just so ashamed of it, i dont want him looking at them!! or anyone really.

i'm just a bit of a mess right now. i'm trying not to show it, but i'm scared i'll snap again have have yet another relapse.

i dont really know why i even posted this rant, i just really want some help i suppose.

[MadManWithaBox]

If you wanna take therapy on your own, thats your choice. You need to tell your parents that, this is your struggle, not theirs, and while you accept their help, you don't want their interference. As for the holiday, tell your dad. He's gonna have to see if you're sunbathing or whatever with each other, and I know he'd rather hear it from you than just see it, or discover you trying to hide it.

[Fiction]

I agree with Matthew, it's your decision not theirs. If you can't persuade your parents to let you have councelling on your own try telling your councellor who may be bale to talk to your parents. They probabaly think what they are doing is best but maybe hearing it from your councellor will change their minds as to waht is best. :)
As for the scar on your leg, it really is best that you tell him i'm sorry to say :/

[Mike321]

As the other have said, its your choice if you want them there or not. Surley they would want what is best for you, so try and convince them that this is what you want to do.
Your dad will end up seeing the scar on your leg, so its probably bes to just tell him, before he find out himself

[xgeekyrocksx]

i think you should explain to them that you want to go see the councelor alone, they may get the wrong idea but its sorta better to risk them thinking you dont trust them and to get better help.
and the right thing to do would probably tell him. But if i were in your shoes i wouldnt.. i'd be too scared.