I failed myself.

[TheLovelyScars.x]

Relapse. Relapse. F'ing Relapse.
Everyone seems to think ive stopped now, because i hadnt cut or burnt myself in about 40 days, but yesterday i lost it.
I thought i could keep it up without SH but i just cant. I feel like such a failure.

Everything's just getting worse. The depression is at an all time high and my cuts get deeper and deeper everyday.
I feel totally useless and whats worse is that i have absolutely nobody to talk to anymore because all my friends seem to have just drifted.

I dont even know what to do with myself.
I just wanna curl up into a ball and die.
:(

[MadManWithaBox]

I know it hurts when you fall down. But the most important is to get back up, again, and remember their is no such thing as square one.

[Mike321]

Dont beat yourself up about it, 40 days is really good
We've all relapsed , as Matt said, pick yourself back up, and you've got everyone support on here
PM me anytime

[Aspiringanonymous]

You can talk to us any time, it might not be the same but at least it's something. My PM box is always open. :hug3:

By no means have you failed, so long as you do not lose the resolve to continue fighting. Every setback is an opportunity for us to reexamine our ways, and rise up stronger than before with the insight to minimize future mistakes. Why did you relapse this time, and what might you need to change or understand about your situation to prevent a similar occurrence? Rather than dwelling in the disappointment and frustration, try to approach the experience productively.

The more focus is given to these negative emotions, the more difficult it will be to see anything else - and the addiction will gain in power. As long as you are aware of this, you have the power to break the cycle - because you deserve so much more.

May there be light and strength for you. :hug3:

[georgiamay]

well, if you went 40 days, i'm sure you can do it again. its just a relapse, that happens. dont beat yourself up about it, just pick yourself back up again, and keep moving forward.

thats why we fall, so we can pick ourselves up again. i know how you feel, pm me if you wanna talk.

[TheLovelyScars.x]

Thanks everyone, it's real nice to know that there's actually people to talk to and that people actually want to help :)

[Filipe]

You shouldn't feel like a failure... I mean... Now go for 80 days.. And then 160... And then.. Who knows? You're a good looking girl, don't feel like a failure... We love you for who you are... And so will everyone else, if you show them you're a strong person :)

I'm always up for a chat :)

Take care hun, I wish you the best

[MadManWithaBox]

There's always people who care, and we are here./ You're only a failure if you truly believe you have failed. You need to talk, pm me anytime.