Hatsune Miku
July 17th, 2010, 01:02 AM
I'm in a long distance relationship. I've been in one since April. At first everything was great, but she lied. She lied about who she was. Now, I knew this already. And It wasn't like I was dating a random stranger because I actually know the real person. Anyways, I always brought it up to her and she would always deny that she was pretending to be someone else. She said she denied it because she thought if I found out I would break up with her, but I wouldn't. Anyways about 2 weeks ago she admitted that she was pretending to be someone else. Everything was going fine. Now shes really insecure. She thinks I deserve someone better and that shes a bad girlfriend and she says we should break up. I love her so much and nobody is better for me than her, and shes a really good girlfriend. She says she doesn't mean it and she would never leave me. We both love eachother alot. But lately things have felt different. We were supposed to meet up about 3 times but something always happened that prevented that. It is hard for us to be together in person because she lives in Canada, and I live in the US, we're about 10 hours away from eachother, by car. Anyways, things lately have felt like they are going downhill. She used to say good night to me in a really sweet way, she still does, not as often though. It seems like shes upset with me alot more, of course this is all probably just in my head, because of the distance between us and all. I really want to see her but its just so hard because we're in different countries. We both love eachother so much though, and I know I'm 14, but I want to spend a long time with her. Nobody in our families will understand. I've asked alot of people if they could bring me to see her, they all said no without even thinking. Her mom wont drive her. Her moms ex boyfriend ( who was always there for my girlfriend and considers him as a step dad ) was going to bring her but got called into work for the month and had to go on a trip. Her cousin was supposed to bring her, I dont know what happened with that though, she told me but I didn't really understand it, I'll have to ask her. Her step dad gets back from his trip at around the beginning of august . We're both hoping he'll still bring her. I dunno. I guess this distance is just killing me. I cry almost everynight because of it, but I love her and I'll wait for as long as it takes to see her. I've given so much up for her and will give up even more. I put her before myself. I treat her like a real lover should treat their partner, and I cant wait till I get to be with her.
I guess I just needed to let all this out.
I guess I just needed to let all this out.