i...i... i cant phsyically cut anymore.

[1_21Guns]

i stood there in the kitchen, knife in my hand, other hand lifting my top up so i could cut my stomach. instead of doing it, i stood there and cried, shaking like a leaf. I shook my head at the knife, put it back, and went back to my laptop in the next room.
I can't even do it anymore.
I guess your all going to say that's a good thing,
but i'm not so sure it is.
I quite like my little box I crawl into with my blade, and it's slipping away from me.
i'm scared.

[Kaius]

I know its hard to break habits Nat, but its hard for a reason. And that's so when you do eventually break the cycle you'll be deterred from doing it again. Although you can't see it, its a good thing you're unable to physically do it any more, and that's the first step you need to take. You know we're here for you whenever you need us, all you need to do is ask.

[1_21Guns]

thanks Aaron...

[Mike321]

This is a good thing Nat, as Kaius said, its hard to break a habbit.
But maybe this is another good step to stopping if you cant physically bring yourself to cut.
Everyone on here is here to help you if you need it
PM me anytime

[1_21Guns]

I guess so Mike,
I've already kinda relapsed though, because i sat and scratched my arm till it bled...
then i was gonna walk out of two lessons today with my pencil sharpener...
ugh.

[sarah newman]

Nat, it's okay x

you dont need to be scared, you just need someone whos there, a close friend to talk to maybe? or talk to us x

im feeling really sorry 4 youu right now, but please dont go out of class rooms or else people will get suspicious x

maybe you not physically be able to cut anymore is a good sign coz then you wont do any damage x

just dont do it again xx

pm me anytime xxx im always here for youu, we all are x

[1_21Guns]

thank you Sarah, i've been fighting that so much at the moment, i think its going away again though, so hopefully i wont end up doing that one day.
im no as sure im so unable anymore, but i dont feel like it again at the moment, so maybe the urges are over for now once again.

[sarah newman]

thats good,
just blank cutting out and im sure youu will be fine xx

[Mike321]

Its good to hear that they are hopefully going away
I do feel really sorry for you, you've been though alot
So you deserve a break from all the urges
Stay positive
PM me anytime

[1_21Guns]

thank you Mike :heart: