Fucked up in the head.. uuurrrrggggghhhhhh!!

[sarah newman]

i have tried..

and tried...

but why should i try any longer??

i have made up shit in the past, no on ewill no how much i have regretted saying shit..

i just need to cut..

i have lasted a month wiv out cutting..

but i dont c the point in y i should stop when it makes me happy to c my blood..

maybe i should just do a deeper cut on my wrist??? maybe, just maybe, it will stop all my emotional and physical pain for good.

[starrburst]

But just think about it, face the facts, cutting won't help... That "one cut" will just bring you stronger urges and it'll turn into a "just one more" and you will regret that one cut that brought, maybe 30 more. Or what if you slip up and end in hospital needing stiches...? What'll you feel like then?

I'm here to help, pm me anytime! I know lots of alternatives... i Hope you keep strong xxx

[XomaggsoX]

Cutting does not help everything go away. It might make u happy but it doesnt for long. Im basically saying the same thing starrburst said. It is not worth it.

[sarah newman]

god im sos tupid, i slipped up again yesterdayy, all over my stomach, i hope this doesnt make me addicted to it :(
it was sooo good tho x
but its bad, and i dont want this to muck everythin up, me not cuttin for a month is good for me :) i h8 myself right now for doing it :( xx thanx for comments tho xx

[Mike321]

Dont hate yourself, we've all slipped up
Lasting a month is really good, this is a hard addiction to break
Just pick yourself back up and see if you can go another month
I know its hard but believe in yourself, you can do it
PM me anytime

[Fiending_the_freedom]

I know it feels like cutting is the only way you can control the pain, and it feels like you'll never be able to live without it, but it isn't.
I know its hard, and i know it seems like you will never be able to stop, but those thoughts are the reason you come back to it in the end.
I have gone over a year without cutting, and it feels great to say i've officially quit, and i know YOU can too.
One major thing that you need to do, and I know it seems hard, is to stop that thinking process before it begins. When you find your thoughts slipping back to telling you that you can't do it, stop the thoughts before they slip out of control.
Just dont give up, because you will never find satisfaction in never trying.

[sarah newman]

i have gone 2 whole days without cutting, and im feeling okayish...
but my friend cut her wrist and it really triggered me :S i told her about me and then she carried on showing me, it was horrible...

[Mike321]

Well done for the 2 days, thats good
Maybe she feels, she can show you it because you do it yourself, but if it triggers you, ask her not to show you it as your trying to stop
Keep resisting the triggers and the urges (I know its not easy)
See if you can make it a week :)
PM me anytime

[sarah newman]

i doubt i can make iit a week, i had a crap day!!!
this stupid boy is messing wiv my head!!
i am pissed off and cant cope anymore...

[Asylum]

hun... don't cut.. you can get through this without cutitng. you should keep trying to stop, because you went this far without it. i know you don't want to do this forever. i know you don't want to be in your 60s carrying around a razor for "just in case". or having to answer your childrens questions when they ask, " mommy whats that on your wrist?" it's not jsut affecting you... it affects everyone... your not just hurting yoruself but other people as well.. think about the people who care about you. you don't want to hurt htme too. keep the past in the past. you can't change the past, but move on and make the futrure better. what is dwelling on the past goign to do? it won't change anything. i'm sure everyone has moved on from that past situation, you should too. i know it's hard... trust me i do. but you need to forgive yourself and move on.
cutting will not stop or change the past. it will not stp emotional pain. sure... it may for a second or two.. but is it worth it? is it worth that life tiem worth of scars and hiding. no it's not.. you know deep inside you it will not solve anything. perhaps u r doign it because you feel like you need to be punished "for making up shit" well you don't hun, you really need to forgive and froget and let yourself move on.. cutting will not take the past away.. it's not worht it.

here are some tips for wanting to see blood: draw on yourself, use food coloring, use a red marker and draw cuts on yourself, henna tattos.

i hope this helps, PM me anytime, i hope that helped a bit.

PS: good job on making it a month!!! that is amazing :)

[sarah newman]

Thank you