Is this feeling weird?

[sarah newman]

Hey guys,,

I just wanna no..

I feel like i give out good advice to people on here, i comment on quite a few of peoples cutting and self harm posts, and i hope they take on board what i have said..

but the thing is..

I have a really bad self harming problem..

i havent cut in a bout 1 month..

and yet, i give out advice, but i cant pay attention to the advice i give..

i just wanna cutt, and hopefully, someday,, die...

[xgeekyrocksx]

first of all well done for not cutting in a month, thats a long time and t must have been hard for you xx
i hope your feeling about wanting to die will change and maybe, if you havnt already, you should speak to someone off of the internet..in life :)
and no, it isnt too wierd..its easier to tell someone to do something, then to acctually do it yourself from your own perspective.. (did that make sense..no it didnt did it?)
hopw you'll be okay <33

[sarah newman]

i have tried speaking to someone off of the net, but it seemed like they didnt care, or they didnt understand what im going through :/

[xgeekyrocksx]

im sorry about that... and you know.. maybe one day you will find someone who seems to care..
in fact it might be the person you spoke to in the first place! x

[sarah newman]

naaa, i'll most prbably end up to where i was in the first place, cutting. its the one thing that make sme happy so y not? xxx thanx 4 your help anywayz x

[enjoying_my_insanity]

it is definatly easier to give advice than to take your own advice and i want you to know that all of us on VT care about you and want you to get better, even tho im new here i hope i somehow help you *huggg*

[1_21Guns]

you dont take your own advice because your human. as beachgurl said, its very easy to give advice but then be completely oblivious of it ourselves, probably because our mind finds ways to fault the advice.
not cutting in a month is a big achievement, keep going. your doing really well.
someday you won't want to do those things, and you'll see that lifes better without a blade.
best of luck. you can PM me if you wish to talk.

[sarah newman]

im such an idiot, i cut again on my stomach and legs, and i had pe today! it was so hard to cover them, but at least no one saw. im so stupid :( i now realise a month is a massive achievement 4 me and now my m8s r sayin different things 2 me about this boy who is tellin them ballshit bout me!
im so annoyed wiv him :( grrr x thanx tho guys xxx