I feel like crying =(

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

I feel like crying because i haven't cut in a week and one day, just about. Ive stopped two urges so far within the past two days. I can't find my blades, and im cleaning my room to try and distract myself.

I feel like crying because i want to cut, and because i just plainly dont like myself in general. I want to have another life, one where more good things happen than bad things. I wanna talk to my grandma but shes dead, i do have another grandma but she ignores all bad things and never talks to my mom (her daughter). i wanna talk to my Aunt Cindy, but shes dead, i have two other aunts but theyre bad. One tried to kidnap my sister when i was 8, and the other tried to kidnap her granddaughter. I wanna hug my uncle Al, but he died when i was like 8, and the only other uncle i have is a druggie and worse....

Three people i know died a uncle aunt and grandma. The good ones.

The bad ones? Two aunts, an uncle and a grandma.

Moms dad died before she was married.
Dads dad we love him, but....i wanna hug my good dead Grandma. =( =( :(:(

I wanna hug someone who cares alot about depressed people and who has gone through alot like i have.

[myskias]

i havent experienced as much death as you have.. but i really want to be there for you! i care so much about depressed people. its my goal to try and help them! I am here for you i promise and im here to give you at least a virtual hug whenever i possibly can! i am so sorry for your losses.. but just remember. people do care about you!

[sarah newman]

i genuinely feels orry for youu.
it sounds like youu feel like theres no one to got to or help youu? well, good news.. there is!
There your GP, this forum, councillor, friends, and im sure your family will care in the long run. i do understand if u dont wanna tell your family tho, thats like me xxx
Im sorry for your losses and im always here if you need to chat hun xx

[Aceso]

It sounds like your having a hard time at the moment.
First, congrats on making a week, I yet have to succeed that goal.
Second, I never really had any relations close by to hug, so Im not going to be fantastically helpfull but, even though your grandma has gone, do you have anything of hers at all? Like a pillow? If so, just keep it safe, and hug that. Or hug your dad. The power of hugging can work miricles, trust me. :)
Feel free to PM me anytime, and good luck :)

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

i dont like huggin my dad it freaks me out