i know it's so bad, but i can't quit

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

i know it's a crutch and an addiction, and i know how harmful it is. but i don't know how to explain it... i'm drawn to it. i don't want to, i regret the ugly scars on my body, but it's so nice. that's such a morbid, gross thought and i just want to smack myself for talking like that. i already have professional help. my mom knows, she just doesn't seem to care enough to look beyond it every time i lie. i always am trying to advise people against this, but, here i am, gouging my legs open. and it's so much harder in the summer cause you can't cover them up as easily.
it's a vicious cycle. i get away from it for a few weeks, a couple months if i'm lucky. then i spiral down again. i'm tired of fighting against it, just cutting all the time is easier than hating myself for not having the strength to stop forever. is there anyone here who has gotten totally away from it? please share your solution with me

[myskias]

ive cut only once before. i didnt really like it. it was ok for like the time being but it wasnt worth it and didnt provide help. what i used to do is take a knife and stab the center of my hand. id make a tiny little hole and yeahh. I stopped doing that though because i realized that hurting myself is not a good way to lead to happiness.

what i realized is that instead of hurting myself.. i needed to find and search for the thing that drove me to live. the reason that makes me want to continue in my life. MY meaning in life. through all the searching i had problems but once i found it, my life grew exponentially..

Basically what i am saying is that you should just try your hardest to get the cutting mentality out of your head, and find what your true purpose in life is. and pursue that with every bit of energy and love you possess for it. And remember, happiness comes from within.. cutting does not bring happiness..

If you have any questions just feel free to PM me. :) im here to talk anytime you need me to.. I promise

[sarah newman]

Okay, firstly, you talking like that isnt odd or weird. Its what someone who harms themselves says, its what i say x

once you start, u think u get drawn to it, its what your head tells youu, it feels so good...
but the thing is, it causes scars and horrible cuts on your body x

pm me any time x im here 4 youu, i really feel for youu and feel sorry for youu xxx

[enjoying_my_insanity]

Basically what i am saying is that you should just try your hardest to get the cutting mentality out of your head, and find what your true purpose in life is. and pursue that with every bit of energy and love you possess for it. And remember, happiness comes from within.. cutting does not bring happiness..


i agree with this and also when you said that you tell ppl not to cut maybe that is your purpose in life, to save ppl from the harm that they would cause themselves....maybe you could start a support group and put your energy into that and not cutting yourself, be an example for others who cut, or are depressed and considering cutting. i hope i helped you :)

[crims0nbl00d]

i know it's a crutch and an addiction, and i know how harmful it is. but i don't know how to explain it... i'm drawn to it. i don't want to, i regret the ugly scars on my body, but it's so nice. that's such a morbid, gross thought and i just want to smack myself for talking like that. i already have professional help. my mom knows, she just doesn't seem to care enough to look beyond it every time i lie. i always am trying to advise people against this, but, here i am, gouging my legs open. and it's so much harder in the summer cause you can't cover them up as easily.
it's a vicious cycle. i get away from it for a few weeks, a couple months if i'm lucky. then i spiral down again. i'm tired of fighting against it, just cutting all the time is easier than hating myself for not having the strength to stop forever. is there anyone here who has gotten totally away from it? please share your solution with me
its tough, it takes time it takes will power and support. (if you need more people to talk to there not professionals but they will be your friend go to the site in my signature) the best thing you can do is get rid of what you use. thats a huge step, when you want to cut distract yourself with something else it doesn't alway work but it does most of the time for me. i know how you feel about being drawn to it, i have considered my needles my babies i loved them i was in love with them. i put them before everyone. its going to be a long battle but if you fight it enough I know you can make it through. and remember this.. Everyone falls everyone it just takes time and if you keep looking forward you will be able to beat it. just remember you can contact the people at that site in my signature when ever you want at anytime and about the helping people. I started that site, and I want to help people with it that is why I started it. I myself am still fighting the addiction but it has gotten better since I have support and love from the team working with us. good luck on your battle i know you can do it :]

[Asylum]

your just setting yourself up for failure... if you want to quit you need to cahnge that mind set around. you can quit. and you will. it's hard, but you must resist the urge. you have to beleive you can quit and want to stop to actually quit. you need will power. think about how it affects others around you. it hurts them. your not just hurting yourself your hurting loved ones too. do you want to be 60 carrying a razor for just in case? (think of somone old and rinklally imagine them cutting with their paper liek skin.. it's not the best picture) think ahead to the future when you have kids... if you do that is. they look at your cuts or scars, "mommy what are those?" you can quit... your mom does care about you, put yoruself in her shoes, what would you do with a daughter who cut, if you have no understanding about it yoruself? you have the strenght to stop. you just have to want it. do the five minute rule for the urges. i'll allow myself to cut in five minutes. five minutes comes.. ok ten minutes i can cut.. an hour. see how long you can push yoruself and then the urge is usually over. this video explains it better http://www.youtube.com/user/idranktheseawater#p/u/8/SVy2kxcX_0M you cna do it. good luck, you are not alone, PM me anytime