Fuck life

[starrburst]

I'm on the edge, the very edge...I just want to die...To end this...Stop the suffering and, well...I don't want to eplain what...Because it's...hm...different xD

I need to cut, I'm addicted to cutting, If I don't cut I get deeply depressed...I can't live a normal life...Not now, not anymore...

I need help...I find sacrifice and death in genrel, beautiful and fasinating. I feel so strange, I can't cry anymore...I don't know why...I want to cry. I wish I could just know someone who understands me...I can't explain it...
Anyways...I wanna kill myself...But then I don't...Then I do again...I feel so trapped...so alone...any help?

[smile]

Try and calm down hun, breathe and relax yourself, try and release all he stress and hurt inside your body, close your eyes and imagining all the sadness and feeling leaving your body, start from your toes and go through every body part until you reach your head. This may not work for you, but for me it helps me calm down.

Your not alone, at all, there are many other people out there who feel like this, i often feel like this and see death as a beautiful thing. It seems like the asy way out but it isnt. Think of all the people you would hurt if you killed yourself. Your family, friends, people on here, they would miss you incredibly and would be deeply upset.

Are you seeing a professional at the moment? Maybe if your not you should consider it, they will be able to help you and get through this so you dont feel so depressed becuase you havent cut. Cuttting is hard, its hard to go through and a massive struggle to stop. You CAN get there and you WILL. You can live a normal (whatever that is!) life again, you cn get that back. Stay strong. You can do it. *hugs*

[crims0nbl00d]

I know how you feel, i was also addicted to cutting, im slowly recovering from it, i went through withdraws like a drug addict would when i started to quiet i would get sick but i fought it so much because i wanted to stop i needed to stop. for awhile i started pinching myself so i didnt cut it helped some but it still wasn't good for me after i stopped having bad urges i drew on my arm with a marker when i wanted to cut. it helped and still does you cant go through it alone, and please dont comment suicide there is so much to look forward to, it may not seem like it now but there is so much to live for.

please get help.. the link in my signature should be able to help you.

[starrburst]

Is it better to make more cuts, or keep cutting deeper? Right now I cut deeper into my old ones insted of making new ones...that way youget less scars...but you bleed more..so im not sure which is better all in all.
I can't take much more hmmmmmm...

[sarah newman]

You should live life to the max. Dont let anything come in the way of that. You have a wonderful future to look forward to.
I no how it feels to wanna die. When you dont, you dont wanna die, the you do and dont again and again. It mucks up your head.
Just dont kill yourself, exercise, keep your mind off things, write a diary of your thoughts
And try not to cut yourself hun, it may feel like the best thing ever, but it makes things ten times worse xx
we are all here 4 u if youu need to chat xx
and remember, we will support you al the way x