Suicide....?

[wavey]

Hey, im sure people are sick of reading these but this time, im different.

Ive left school in hope of College to do something i love. IT.
Recently my mom was diagnosed with a condition called M.E, a life long condition that is fucked up with stress.
Shes been taking it all out on me, pissed off because shes trying to get a holiday for us and she just got ripped off with cash.. great. desperate people wanting quick cheap deals get scammed its how the world spins. ;/

But ive had enough of this bullshit.. im considering dieing, killing myself to be more accurate. A packet of Pills, some drink from downstairs and there we go, ill slip into a sleeping state and never return. this is for the best.

By the time i get a response, i will be dead. or will i.

Im in a mixed state of mind, if i die, my mam gets stressed and fuck knows what will happen then...
If i dont kill myself, well ive got alot of shit to plodge through until it gets back to a state i want.

Or i have the alternative, get as much cash as possible, fuck off to another country in hope of Refuge in a hostel and then start my career from nothing to something great. But then again. it could all fail horribly and cause added stress..

Even killing myself isnt a valid option no more..
Fucking hell... wish i was just never born ;|!!!!!!!!!
TOO MUCH FUCKING BULLSHIT IN THE WORLD.....

[Sith Lord 13]

You're right. There is too much bullshit in the world. But killing yourself won't solve anything. You need to just keep fighting. It sucks, I know, but it's what you have to do. Because things get better. You just have to stick around to see it.

[Scarface]

The bullshit is always broadly spread and just happens to get on the very last nerve. I know how that feeling is, but making an escape by either killing yourself or running will not solve anything. First of all suicide will only add to your moms stress and make things a lot harder for her. I don't think I would be able to imagine going through all of this and finding out that my song killed himself. Second why run away? A wise man once told me that running leaves a trail and that trail soon lead to you. Meaning that no matter where you run your problems will always follow you.

I know it can be very tense at times especially with deep drama and decisions. It can be very overwhelming, but you have to prevail you have to push through. Otherwise you will be running for the rest of your life and I know you don't want to do that.

Everyone is faced with drama some are worse than others, but please keep a positive mind frame and be there for your mom because she needs you right now more than you think. Even though she has a disorder doesn't invalidate that she is your mom. Stand by her and take on these current challenges head on, you can do it.

If you ever need someone to talk to I'm always here PM/VM me anytime.