>.< Gurrrrrrrr Not Again

[HeroesAndCons]

Well i cut and i put "H8" (hate) on my right leg
why
people were fighting and i alwsase think its my fault
and i hate myself for it
>.< i hate this

[sarah newman]

u shouldnt feel like its your fault, it obviously wouldnt be
dnt cut, it makes things 10 times worse, trust me on that one
if u need someone to talk to, talk to friends, parents, a trusted adult/ teacher, or ring childline, they r good at givin advice xx

[Aspiringanonymous]

The appropriate question is, why? Why do you feel you are the one to blame? If you wish to challenge this emotion, rationalizing with it may be a good starting point. Try and get to the bottom of it - if it's possible. Chances are, it will all very quickly break down to make no sense whatsoever, because the truth is, not everything that occurs around you occurs as a result of you. Sure, each one of us influences our immediate environment simply by existing, but to what degree? And since when does merely existing become a fault? You are far from able to control the fact that you were born - if anything, it's your parents who are wholly responsible - for example.

Try not to hate the hate - it only creates a vicious cycle of absurdity that is in no way justified and serves only to make things more difficult. Recognize the initial experience of self-hate as a logical fallacy, and work to change that as objectively as possible, without letting judgments get in the way. Visualize a puzzle - that is the problem you must tackle - except this time the puzzle is thoughts and emotions which reside in your consciousness. Of course you must be more cautious here, but treat it in essence no differently than a puzzle dealing with impersonal matters printed on paper.

You don't have to be trapped in this current state of mind - it is possible to do something about it. The first step is to become aware, and refuse to be controlled by blind emotions.

Feel free to PM me if you ever need someone to talk to. I'll always be glad to help. :hug3:

[Wish]

Hate is a very strong word, whatever way it's spelt or form it takes. I think it shows something you feel about yourself in the fact that it is what you 'wrote' on your leg. I think that it is easy to fall into this viscious cycle of hatred and blame and when you're in there, it is incredibly hard to break. When you're in there, you will use anything (even if it is not rationally or even possibly you fault) to feed this belief of yourself. What you have to look for is why, like Krezlyn said, you are in this cycle in the first place, when you hate yourself so much.

To me, it seems like you're at a loss of what you did to yourself and the reasons why. Try and rationally sort out your thoughts from impulses and rationality and work it out that way.

Take care xx

[MadManWithaBox]

You're looking for meaning, to justify what you did, cos you now regret it. You don't hate yourself, you hate the state you've put yourself in.

[ForgetMeNot]

I totally agree with what Krezlyn said

[HeroesAndCons]

Thank you guys for youdr help im feeling better and stuff i talked to my friend who also SI and she and i help eachother out and i feel much better

[Mike321]

Glad your feeling better, and you have someone that you can talk to
But dont blame and hate yourself, we all make mistakes, when we let things build up
PM me if you need to talk